It’s something that’s talked about in hushed voices and mulled over with your fellow teammates. But we know it’s coming. Thankfully us on T squad we’ve been together as a squad 2 of the 4 months before we had our team changes. We got to know one another so it wasn’t quite abrasive as it can be. Needless to say it wasn’t too hard…kinda.
We met together as a squad in Kathmandu for our debrief between month four and five. Knowing that the change was coming. Countless times over a meal or drink, we made our wish list or reliving the times at training camp. When they asked the hard question of “Is there someone you can’t see yourself working well with on a team?”. We began to rethink did I answer that truthfully, did they remember that convo or at times praying they’ve forgotten your surface answer. It was a scary time or so we thought.
We as a squad got distracted from the knowledge of we have a God that loves us well. He’s got it in control and has the best planned for us. Trust me after we received our card with the list of our new teammates. Some people were pissed, some were thankful and some just mourned. I mourned the loss of my teammates. Ben, Libby, Kara and Logan stayed on our “old” team and Sam moved to another team. Guille and I got placed with another team that seemed so far from our old team. Words of I’m gonna miss you or it’s gonna be ok didn’t seem to hit the right spot.
Thankfully we weren’t in charge. Each of us have grown in our new teams. We’ve made deeper connections and started to grow where we started to become comfortable with one another. We’ve made friendships that will last longer then any team change. I will forever be part of Team Sojourner with our beautiful memories, our inside jokes and our “deck ‘em” hands in shout.
But for now God placed me in a new season with my new Team Fearless Love. We’ve started to challenge one another, love each other and grow as a new family. It slips once in a while from each of us saying “oh, my old team” but the change into our team has been made. It probably won’t be the only time we change teams but we’re trusting God has the best next time too.
Team Fearless Love: Becca, Hannah, Guille, Kelsey, Dave, Ruby and I.
