I met with friends poolside today (luxury I will not have for 11months) and it was exactly what I didn't know I needed. My dear awesome friend who has had a very rough couple of years gave me great advice and support. I admire this friend because throughout her ordeals she has hung close to God. Its her dedication to God and her Faith that gives me strength and that I admire. I was telling her about all my fears about not being home with my family that I've never been apart from for more than a week. And about what it's going to be like while I'm away and what it will be like when I return. I realized how much I'm going to miss here at home. My fear of not being here for my family if something happens (not that I have some kind of supernatural power to control things if I were here). She reminded me that God is still God no matter what. There is nothing I can do here or there to change God's plan. How dare I even think I can. She quoted scripture to reassure me of God's awesomeness and His will and how He is in control….always. She reminded me of the power of prayer. It's the devil getting into my head to try and pull me from going and trusting God. I was letting fear/devil take hold of my head and heart. Thank you God for putting the right people in my life to always keep me focused on You and always keeping You my goal and the core of who I am.
Although it's going to be hard to be away, I may not really realize how hard until I leave, I know in my heart of hearts that going on the WR is where God is calling me to be. I'm excited for the unknown adventure that lies ahead, the relationships with others on the WR that I'll get to do life with, and am just so blessed for the people I have here at home.
