Do YOU know your valued?
Today’s a good day; I think everything is going my way.
Today I have it all figured out, I feel good.
I think I feel loved today, I think everybody likes me today…at least I hope so
Except wait, why does she have that face on and what’s wrong with his attitude.
I can’t read those situations; I must have not measured up there.
Hmm how can I do better next time? And over there she looks at peace, everybody seems to love and notice her how can I imitate that? How can I receive more of that?
Now I’m not sure what people think?
Crap, things are getting out of my control. Calm down and just block things out
Tell myself I’m worthy, I’m good, I’m loved, I’m…
But wait how can it be true if I don’t feel it? Because if it were really true then I would have felt it from him or her and what about her I thought we were closer then that. Ok focus, get back on track, just keep telling myself that I’m,
no, no,no that doesn’t work.
Ok shut my eyes and try really really hard, come on emotions change,
come on feelings be different…uhh useless.
I know there’s a way for this all to be different
I’ve seen it evident in people, seen it to be natural
This step by step procedure of how to feel worthy and loved is just not working
So I pray now really hard, Ok God what now?
Make me better please!
I listen…
Child you’re losing a battle I’ve already won. I have the answer but you need to stop first. Are you willing to not try?
You my dear are an orange and I am the whole tree
I gave you life as a beautiful orange, whole and the brightest of colors
I love you and what a gift it is when the maker is 100% satisfied with his creation
But along the way you started to feel like an apple
And this got confirmed with the voices of others saying you were an apple
You saw others as oranges and yourself trying to measure up to that.
I heard as you cried out “Father make me an orange”
And “God make me whole”
As I point this mirror of truth to your face do you see now how I have already answered that prayer? Because Child you are and will always be an orange. I know, I created you.
His truth breaks lie’s at the core, it uncovers hidden darkness that our eyes overlook. With worthiness written in my identity and the freedom to stop trying I see the light in more places. I accept love that others were giving me all along. Joy overwhelms me. Without even trying I see that I am one healthy colorful big orange, worthy in every circumstance.
