Okay, so here it is…I have been home from training camp for about a week now, I leave in about one month for the World Race and I literally “can’t even’ right now! I do not have the words to describe all of the feels going on inside of me and I currently do not plan to write a blog that even remotely paints a clear picture of my life at this current moment. But, let me give it a shot…
Nearly 9 months ago I made the decision to apply for the World Race, completely on faith and hoping that God would have it all under control. With little-to-no money at the time, it seemed practically impossible for the World Race to transfer from a dream to a reality. But the closer time gets to launch weekend the more the dream starts to look more 4-D than ever before. There have been moments of discouragement, moments of excitement and moments of “I feel like I’m going to pee my pants.” Sometimes they all intertwine and I feel like I can burst from the inside out. Which is literally how I feel right now in the middle of Starbucks as I make the attempt to type this blog without a random outburst of a scream shouting, “AHHHHH I LEAVE IN ABOUT ONE MONTH!!!” Could you imagine the response? I would like to imagine that a disco ball would come down from the ceiling, the lights go dim, balloons and stringer fall all over the place and everyone has a random dance party to the song “Celebration” by Kool and the Gang. But lets be honest, people just might stare, some may grab there kids in fear and others may just look up while slowly sipping their Ice Caramel Macchiatos with a double-shot of expresso in confusion as to what just happened.
Yeah, I know that is a bit dramatic. But if you were to put yourself in my shoes for about one hour, you would understand. Not only am I about to leave home for a year, but I’m about to leave the states for a year. I wont be able to just drive a few hours home for holidays, for some home cookings or even just to get some laundry done. The only contact I have back home is through social media resources like, Facebook and FaceTime. But to be honest, that is the smallest part of all these feels I have.
I am close to one month away from embarking on a yearlong journey with God around the World! It has been my dream to take part in overseas missions where I have no choice but to rely on the provision and guidance of Jesus Christ. This is about to be a year where I get to completely abandon the “normal” everyday life back home, to radically follow Jesus through the nations. I’m not sure how that would make you feel, but what I describe above doesn’t even come close to describing all of the feels I am experiencing right now.
For the first time in a long time I have no agenda, but to say “yes” to Jesus and follow where He takes me. For the first time I have nothing stopping me from doing what He has called me to do. For the first time I do not have a plan for the later years of my life to come, the only plan I do have is to trust God and know that He is sovereign and faithful!
Being in a place of unknowing what is to come is probably the most frightening but also strangely enough the most rewarding and comforting feeling I have ever felt before. I do not know what to expect for these next 11 months and 11 countries. I do not know what to expect when or if I return home from the World Race. But I am beyond ready for what God has planned for my life!
Okay, I am done rambling about all my feels for now…
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