"Be it far from me, to not believe. Let this mountain that's in front of me be tossed into the sea. And through it all, through it all, my eyes are on you. And it is well with me. So let go, my soul, and trust in Him. The wind and waves still know His name."
Bottom line as of right now, I still feel so strongly called here. To this place at this time. But some things have come up, plans have been changed, and I am completely unsure of everything surrounding this… Today is the last day to mail in donations, or send them in for them to post by the deadline, things fell through with my car and I now have to sell it before I leave for the full price I owe on it. This. Seems. Impossible.
I would like to ask for sincere prayer from you guys. It's so scary to say I still feel like this is right because honestly right now it looks impossible for everything to work out and come together.
People have been telling me how God is the "eleventh hour" God; He is glorified when we are helpless and the impossible becomes possible… but there are times that we are wrong, or that He says no. It's as simple as that. While I REALLY don't see a way, I also don't feel like He's saying "no".
WHAT I DO KNOW FOR SURE:
No matter what His plan, no matter where I go wrong or where I go in general, He is good. I will find joy in Him and I have given my life for Him to use. I will praise Him for who He is and how He loves us! (Which is outrageously). He is so great and faithful; He is God regardless of what happens or doesn't happen at any situation in our lives. But in this situation, I'm willing to step out and look ridiculous and be vulnerable in saying, I do believe this is where He wants me and at the time He wants me here. So please keep my family and I in your prayers–the sale of my car, comfort for my parents, and faith for all of us.
