I have so much more peace than I ever knew possible. All this talk about “the peace of God” actually exists. There’s actually this supernatural peace that supersedes all circumstances and rushes in when you least expect it… and whenever you ask for it. Its crazy. I’m learning to believe that God is faithful and trustworthy. I hate that this is stuff I’ve heard about my whole life and Christian ease that’s been thrown around the last hundred years… because, although being true, on some level it feels like it cheapens it when I have a word to associate to something that sacred.
But something happens when you actually get it.
Something happens when the supernatural reaches in and throws anything natural out of the way. Anything expected out of the way. And we have come up with a whole vocabulary for it to try and explain the unexplainable. To try and somehow put God in our finite box of language. We confine Him to our feeble attempts at grasping the infinite. Our sub par attempts at naming the mystery of the Holy.
I cant explain to you with crappy human words what happened the other night during debrief when God reached down into the core of who I am and stripped bondage off me. Stuff that I’ve been living in for my whole life. It felt like the hand of God physically reached down into my stomach, grabbed a hold and ripped something off. It hurt like HELL. I sobbed longer than probably made my team comfortable, louder than the hostel owner probably preffered… but the release that came over me afterward was unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. A joy that puts any happiness I thought to have experienced, to shame.
Something I could only equate to the Holy of Holy’s.
Something this blog can do no justice.
Trust that He is good, even when your circumstance proves otherwise… He is ALWAYS good.
And just for fun… Our friend Mary in Serbia (who’s actually a georgia peach 🙂 granted me the gift of this lovely Halloween apron- we all know how I love my aprons! And yes it DOES glow in the dark 🙂
