I can remember when I was young always being the peacemaker. I never tried to make any ripples in the family. If there were ripples I would do anything to fix them, for I never wanted anyone to be mad at me. I wanted to make sure that I had the perfect relationships with everyone in my family. I was a family member pleaser. I always wanted to make sure everyone in the family got along together too.
However, being on the race has been an eye opener. I talked with my mother for Christmas and it was good to see everyone, but there was something wrong and I knew it. Then the truth came out that right now there are things happening back at home. I am unable to be there and help out. At first yeah, I was pissed because I am across the world and not there to know what is going on. Part of me wanted to go home so I could fix any ripples that were in the family.
However, I took a moment and asked the common question, Why? Why me again, God? At that moment I actually sat and waited for an answer. The answer is that I am no longer the PEACEMAKER for my family. At this moment I am on the race for a reason and not at home with what is going on. I am on the race to grow and build a stronger relationship with my heavenly Father. Right now my family needs to fight for one another and learn things on their own at this time.
It is time for my family to reconnect and rekindle any relationships with one another. I no longer have the title of the peacemaker for my family. All I can do right now while being on the race is to fight for them by praying and trust that my Father has everything in His hands. What they are going through right now might be tough, but it will get better. Just trust in the Father.
There might not be an answer right away or any results. It does take time with everything, but I’m learning patience and with His right timing everything will work out. Keep moving forward my dear family, for our Father has you in his hands. Just let Him have your hand and walk with Him at this time. He loves every one of you guys.
