I actually wanted to go home after my first month on the World Race in Honduras. I was not homesick or anything, it was more of I wanted to put Jesus back in this little box I kept him in. I was not used to Jesus 24/7 and he was showing me some crazy things I was not used too. I normally took Jesus out when I needed something or just felt it was the right thing to do. However, there is more to him than what I remember. The first time I actually connected with my Heavenly Father was at training camp for the World Race, but after training camp I put him back in the little box.
After applying and the phone interview, I knew I was meant to be on this journey when I was accepted on the race. Now I see how close I am to the 15,500 goal for funds. I wrote fundraising letters to supporters and it was amazing to see how many have come through. It is also amazing to receive support from people I did not expect to support me on this journey.
In Honduras, my Heavenly Father was showing me that I am loved by my teammates and others, to let go of all hurt in my past and any hidden secrets, and letting my wall down. So knowing all these lovely things that my Father had shown me, I was freaking out and I wanted to go home. I then had my first experience with the Holy Spirit giggles, feeling renewed and obeying my Father when he was telling me things in my prayers.
With all this happening, I started to freak out. I thought, “What am I getting myself into?” But I prayed one night and asked Him to show me something or tell me some reason that I am still meant to go on this journey, and everything that is happening is wonderful and not scary or crazy.
So the next morning, one of the squad leaders was giving a little message about our Heavenly Father and our inheritance and to see people like our Father would see them. It was like my Father said to me, “No worries daughter for I have you in my plans.” After hearing her speak, there was a relief from everything. My Father was telling me that yes, I have inheritance with him in heaven, but right now on earth this journey for 11 months is my inheritance since my Father is showing me so much.
While this leader was speaking, I had a vision of my Heavenly Father and me sitting together and everything that she was speaking was my reassurance that I am meant to continue on this journey. So God does listen to His children and most of all, we are all his princesses and princes. If there is ever a doubt, just remember He never leaves us or forsakes us.
