During the beginning of the World Race getting to know my team has been hard for me to do. I have always had a wall up and have been trying to never let people in. To let them know the real Drea the crazy, funny, and outgoing person when ready, to get out of the shy shell. This has been a struggle for me to let my team in, to let them get to know the real Drea.
My whole life I have been betrayed by friends and family members not being so kind to each other. I have kept all hurt inside. I started to believe not to trust people and keep everything short and sweet. I would never let people know how I truly felt about things or show them my heart.
I have kept my adoption story out of my testimony and even the death of my father. In the past when I did open my heart I got negative results to both issues. That my family is truly not family since I was adopted and people asking questions about how did your father die and so you grew up in a single home. The sad thing is that as I got older, I received that feedback after opening up.
Since I received those kinds of words I never told my story again, or opened up to people to let them know where I have come from. So now the truth is out why I am a quiet person. But I’m realizing that during this World Race my Father is stretching me and it has only been one month. After having quiet times with my Father and praying, he has healed my heart from all the pain in my past with friends and family.
My family is my family adopted or not. Because my mom has been there for me since I was a little girl and my father died because God wanted to teach me some lesson. Still wondering why he did take my father. And having a single home is not bad, it teaches you independence and strengthened my mom and me. For it grew us closer to each other as mother and daughter.
The night had come where I had to share my testimony to my team. I felt nervous and scared because I had to let my wall down and let them know where I have come from. After telling my testimony my team gave me hugs and reassured me that I can trust again. The time has come that I need to let the wall down. In life it is okay if people may shut me down or not agree with me on some things. It is okay because I have used my VOICE and shared my story. So I have learned to let the WALL DOWN because now I am FREE. And most of all I am loved by my FATHER.
