The first month of the race was different for me. At first it had to do with fact that God was in every conversation and actually spending the time with God was a must. So that means the quiet time you had was more of getting to know the word. To spend time and understand the Bible more than you ever thought about before. I realized God was a 24/7 and not to just spend time with him when I was bored and it looked right.
So for me I am not used to having God in every conversation. And spending alone time with God was another thing I really struggled with because back at home I was more focused with my daily life. Any free time I had was with spending time with friends or family. I never spend my free time with God because to me He is always there and I can pray to him whenever. Also the little quiet times I had alone was more to watch movies and not spend it with God.
However, being on the race has changed my thinking and any free time I have, I need to spend it wisely. At first I was nervous if I would be doing this spending time with God thing wrong. I did not know what it looks like or what I am supposed to do. Also the fact that I did not bring a devotional book or anything was not helpful. But in watching others spending time with God it looks different for everyone. It is more of how you connect with your Heavenly Father.
So now I am okay with 24/7 conversations that contain God in them, because I am learning so much with the time I spend with him. Also the fact I am learning a lot from my team mates and even from some squad mates. This whole 24/7 God talk makes me hungrier to learn more about God. And to understand his stories more and realize that he truly loves every one of us. That we are all his princess and princes and that he has so much in store for us.
This has only been month one and I cannot wait to see what the next month is going to be like. I am learning more to lean on my Heavenly Father and to let him take the lead. I am no longer in control and never have been, even if there times I thought I was in control.
