This is something that I wrote during Launch on Friday. For as long as I can remember I've allowed myself to be defined by my past and that is such a lie. Right now I'm struggling to free myself from this lie. I've given myself until 24th to be free of this and allow myself to walk in a life. So I would like for you to take a look in my heart and how I am fighting for my freedom, because I want you to fight with me.
judgement. i'm not being judged so get over it.
i know i've been hurt in the past but these girls
and this family are not going to judge you!
-carrying the world. again not my problem.
that's what God is for. i don't have to please
anyone. that's not my job. i can live how i want!
-freedom of the past. got it! had it! won't lose it!
when jesus died on the cross 2000 plus years
ago he took care of it. God is not going to let me
go back there and believe that with your whole heart!
-starting over. change is going to happen. there's no
way i can get around that! so just know that right now
with these girls be open and straight cause with guys
i can't do that! and know that when time comes
for change they well open welcome me with
open arms and they won't judge me!
insecurities. i'm a daughter of the high king. i am
beautiful. i am loved no matter what i look like.
-feelings. don't be numb. try and feel your emotions.
yes they're going to hurt and suck but you need to feel
these things. that's just life. you can't live this life
without feeling emotions.
-comparing. i am me, myself, and i. no on is going
through this same thing. some have it together, others
are hurting and struggling in other ways.
-breakdown. it's okay to cry and breakdown. i don't
have to be strong anymore. i raised my white flag and
surrendered. breakdown these dang walls that you've
built around your heart. let it breathe fresh air again.
– open up. share with others about what's going on
let them stand beside you and fight for you. you
need their help.
– love. let others love you and love on others
– ask for help. it's okay to ask for help. it's okay to ask
them to fight for you. they are family and that's what
their here for.
– i am worth the fight. there is nothing about me that
makes me less of a person than anyone else.
i am worth it!
don't close yourself off to people. talk, be open with them! even if it's a hot mess just take a deep breath, and relax. don't put on a front, let your guard down. it's okay. they just want to help you be and do the best you can. try and talk, please, it's going to help so much even if at that time it hurts and it's painful but at the end of it you will feel so much better and free. it's okay to cry. really let your emotions show doesn't mean you are a weak person, but it means that you are strong! be open!
