As I start plunging into fundraising full force this month, I can’t help but feel overwhelmed.
After all, this has been the one aspect of WR that’s had me shaking in my boots ever since I felt called to go. See here’s the thing:
I’m not much for asking for a hand out.
“The only time you look in your neighbor’s bowl is to make sure that they have enough.” – Louis CK
I’ve always been the one giving the hand out. Ever since I can remember, my parents led by example in this area for me. Giving selflessly in every aspect. Their time, their resources, their energy. The first signs of this taking root was in my senior year of high school when the Lord called me to faith and radically changed how my life looked. I finally understood why my mom and dad did what they did. I love to give. I love to see what the Lord does with it. I love to see people’s face after you pay for their meal. I love hearing stories of people giving much when they have little.
Because where you spend those resources is where your heart is, right?
So, needless to say, it’s hard thinking about asking for money. Even if it is going to a good cause.
But this past Monday, something beautiful happened. As a requirement of being a Racer, we have to go through a few different bible studies to prepare us for fundraising. One study had us take “inventory” of ourselves and what could, potentially, put a block in our fundraising process. This wrecked me.
Every single topic we discussed had me blown away by the revelation God had brought to me. Neglected commitments, a poverty mentality, disobedience, lack of integrity, unforgiveness, etc. I had more junk in my closet than I thought. The Lord had to really work with me on some of these, and is continuing to coach me through this process.
But isn’t that how God works? You ask him to dig something up, and He not only does that, but He puts His finger on it and shows you exactly where it is. That’s one of the many beautiful things about this dance that we call the Christian life. He is a good father. He helps His children learn how to be Christ-like. It’s a process.
So while I’m in this process, I’m learning that God will provide. Through all my mess and all my messing up. In time, He will provide. I do my part and trust that He will do His.
My main point here is this:
Don’t let your past and/or your present dictate what the Lord wants to do in and for you tomorrow.
– DT
