It’s 3 am February 24, the month passed so quickly. This past week my self confidence has been so low because I am in a tender place. I have been working on some really life long struggles and approaching God with serious questions. I had a very ignorant idea prior to this week that I could avoid them since they are more personal struggles that do not harm anyone else, they just put me in a place where I can’t find inner peace.
I have struggled for some time with avoiding one simple thing God has been asking me to do,
Fast
I have been feeling lead to for… Well, three years now. But every time I decide tomorrow is the day, I wake up and forget or choose to forget. There is a particular spiritual cleansing that happens when you follow through. Yet, being the typical Jonah type I avoid it. There is something very crucial to my faith that God wants me to understand about fasting. While Jesus was with the disciples they did not fast. Questioning Jesus people asked why they did not fast. He explained while he was with them they did not need to, but when he leaves it is crucial they do. Three years of avoiding it. I am done avoiding it… It is just part of what I am called to do as a Christian and I am going to… There is something God has been trying to do in me for years now and I spend so much time avoiding his requests… Prayers in this time are needed. I expect to learn and grow a great deal.
“But the time will come when the bridegroom will be taken from them; in those days they will fast.” Luke 5:35
