This whole pre-launch process is a lot more emotional than what I had expected it to be. I am very close to many people in the town I have lived in for the past five years. We have battled many things together. I start looking into the faces of my friends knowing most likely this is the last time we will ever be together this way. We are all moving forward and unless God calls me back to this city, I will never live here again. I have been spending a lot of my time making sure I take care of the friendships I have now. The world race allows us to start to connect with the racers we will be doing life with for a year. Although I feel this is important for my encouragement and dedication to my future. My friends here are close to my heart. Their encouragement is what gets me through my day. One day me and the other racers will have that bond (and I look forward to it)… But I am going to miss those I have now. I know many of them will always be by my side even as I leave. That comforts me.
Another thing that is hard is this blogging thing. I messaged my mobilizer and she encouraged me to not be afraid of it. I am not always the most confident with my words and stories. I have always had best friends who were great at writing and most of them were English majors in college. So, often we talked for hours about how to word something to get a point across. This time I am on my own. Scary. But it wasn’t until yesterday while talking with a friend did I go ahead and dismiss my negative feelings towards blogging. She reminded me that blogging wasn’t the reason I signed up for the world race. She reminded me of my desires to love people and my desires to see hope be brought to the world. Blogging was secondary. Blogging had become a consuming thought ( a fear) until she said that… So loving is first…Blogging is second. I hope to keep up with this blog so you can read what I am discovering about the love of Christ. But, I will not let it be a fear anymore. This doesn’t mean I will not write on this, I intend on doing so. I just want to let you know (future racers and friends); Blogging isn’t why you come on the world race… pictures in different countries is not why you come on the world race, the ability to say I have been here and there is not why you come on the world race. The world race is for fulfilling God’s calling… to spread the gospel of love with all who will listen…all over the world. So don’t be afraid of the secondary things and don’t hold the secondary things as primary. Just what’s been on my mind…
