So it may surprise some of you that I take a while to open up to people. Which might not make sense on why I signed up to travel the world with 50 strangers; but when God puts it on my heart to do something I know that there is a reason. Over these last two months I have learned that living in community with people, all the time, is not the easiest task in the world. There had been times where I wished I could do things on my own, set my own schedule, and run my own program. However, I believe that we were not created to be alone. Even though it has not been easy, every day I have worked to be part of my team, Team Deliverance. It hasn’t always been easy and it hasn’t always been pretty. But it has been fruitful for everyone and we have all learned a ridiculous amount about ourselves. A few days ago we were having a feedback session and it was the closest I had felt to my team over the last two months. I felt like I was able to let down more walls, to be more honest, to be more vulnerable, and that I desired to work even harder at opening up to my team. In short I was super excited for the upcoming month and the chance to step into these desires.
Then, as usual, something happened that I didn’t expect. Our second night of debrief, in Quito, they began our time of worship by saying that after a lot of prayer that some teams were going to have changes being made to them. Our squad leaders reminded up that change was good and it meant that God was at work, that he is challenging us! I was praying and in agreement. That is until the changes were on my team.
I’m not sure the last time I cried that much, it was hard to loose two of the people I was closest to. For the first few days I was really upset. Not only were Jeremiah and Katie leaving the team; so was the guitar. I was so confused. How could I lose something that God had been bringing so much healing on. But after a few days many things began to click in my brain. I now have the opportunity to develop friendships with two more of my squad mates. I now have two more people to learn from and to pour my knowledge into as well. My new teammates are awesome women of God – Hailey and Rosa! Even with this new revelation I was still confused about not having a guitar. But, as always, God provided. The day before we were heading out to Peru my squad mate, Megan, told me that she was going to let me have her guitar for the month!! How exciting!! The team that she was going to be paired with for the month also had a guitar and she decided to share the guitar wealth with me 🙂 As we embarked to Peru with a new team, a new ministry and a new guitar all working together for a fabulous month.
