I like to think I have all the answers, that I know best. I like to be self sufficient and not ask anyone for anything. I can do it on my own. I never wanted to “bother” God with my prayer requests. I have everything I really need and there are people who really need God’s attention so I shouldn’t ask things of Him. I used to just go about my decision making, making choices I knew were God honoring, then asking Him to bless them later. “I’ll do all the heavy lifting God, I just need your stamp of approval”
But God never asked that of me. He didn’t ask me for me to prioritize my time with Him as less than. He asked for me. All of me.
I felt Him asking me for more than just a simple, basic prayer. He was asking me to ask Him big bold prayers.
Now, I didn’t even know how to do that. The idea of asking God something that big sounded really scary. What if I ask wrong? What if He doesn’t answer? What if it’s not the answer I want? But then it hit me, that doesn’t matter.
Once you bring something to the Lord, the pressure is off of you. It even says so in scripture:
“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you” [1 Peter 5:7]
Sounds too good to be true? Well guess what? With Jesus, too good is true. Jesus is too good for us and He cares for us more than we can ever imagine. All we have to do is lay down our burdens and worries at the foot of the cross and (here’s the kicker for me) leave them there.
So how am I doing that exactly? With four simple words: thy will be done. Not my will, not the will of those around me, but God’s. I want what He wants for my life and my decisions. I want His presence in and around every decision I make, around every step I take. It’s big, it’s bold, it’s a little scary, but I know it’s so beautiful to fully surrender to Him.
