Changing on the Race in inevitable, but sometimes hard to see. I have been struggling with seeing change in my own life recently, so I decided to make a specific list of areas that I want to see growth in. That way I can have a better idea of where to look for growth and Gods hand in my life. I encourage you all to make a similar list, and pray every day over that list for God to stretch you in ways that you think are impossible.
Here is my list:
- I want to see growth in the way that I experience god. I want more then to just Know him, I want to Feel his love for me. I want what I know to move from my head to my heart.
- I want to be able to love under ALL circumstances. I don’t want my emotions to get the better of me when I am angry or upset.I want the self-control to always have my reactions under control, always reacting out of love never out of anger.
- I want people to be able to see Jesus in me in everything I say and do. I want people to think there is something different about me. They should know I’m a Christian long before I open my mouth.
- I want to not be so careless with my words, thinking before I speak.
- I want to value and respect what other people have to say, not thinking that it is only my opinion that matters. A leader does not force their opinions upon everyone, instead they should lift others up around them, valuing their thoughts and opinions.
- I want to be able to hear and listen to the Lords voice.
- I want to depend completely on God for my strength. Not looking at what I can do, or what I have to offer.
- I want to be in constant communication with God. I don’t want him to be a High I sometimes feel, but someone I take with me everywhere I go.
- I want everything I say to be loving and seasoned with salt. Even when I am sarcastic I have thought about the comment, and its consequences.
- I want to be able to handle confrontation in a loving and healthy way. Not bottling up my feelings, or avoiding problems.
- I want to become unoffendable, not letting what people say or do bother me.
- I want my vindication to come from the Lord alone. I don’t want to care about what other people think. I don’t want to be ashamed of who I am, and actually like who God made me to be.
- I want to be able to love everyone, not just the people I like.
- I want to discover my speritual gifts.
- I want wisdom, and the Lord to speak through me to the people around me.
- I want to read the bible and actually get things out of it. I want the word to speak to me.
- I want complete desperation for God, to a point where I Cant function without him. I want to get to the point where if I don’t get my quiet time then i can feel the difference. I want to need him.
- I want freedom from my past. I want God to take my heart, fix the broke places, and erase the scars.
- I want God to become my beloved, and be able to see how God is romancing and pursuing me.
- I want to know God better. Know who He is, his character, recognize his voice, see him move. I want to know Him so much more.
