I know it has been almost a month since I have blogged and I am sorry for that but I have seriously had the worst case of writers block ever. I still am not even sure what to put here but I just feel like now is the time to blog.
Leap of faith…that is one scary phrase and what does it really mean? To me it means giving up the comforts of the American life and living a life of bold faith, listening to the voice of God and letting Him be in full control. In his book “Forgotten God: Reversing Our Tragic Neglect of the Holy Spirit” Francis Chan writes about this very issue and it really hit me hard and made me realize that there is nothing else I would rather be doing for the next 11 months of my life than following God’s voice boldly and courageously.
He writes “More fundamentally, many of us don’t want to be led by anyone other than ourselves. The whole idea of giving up control (or the delusion of it) is terrifying, isn’t it? Do you thrive on controlling the big and small in your life? Does the thought of letting go and listening to the Spirit’s guidance scare you and only make you cling tighter to what you think you have?” (page 50). PAUSE–just have to say that this was totally me for a VERY long time. I was so concerned with controlling everything in my life, espeically after being abused and having control taken away from me, that there was no way that I was going to give God control of the only thing I believed I had control of. But as I explained in a previous blog all of that changed at training camp.
He then writes “The truth is that the Spirit of the living God is guaranteed to ask you to go somewhere or do something you wouldn’t normally want or choose to do. The Spirit will lead you to the way of the cross, as He led Jesus to the cross, and that definitely is not a safe or pretty or comfortable place to be. The Holy Spirit of God will mold you into the person you were made to be.” (page 50). REVELATION–when I read this I could not help but think this is a perfect discription of what The World Race is going to do for me. I can honestly tell you that the idea of camping in a tent for 11 months is not usually my cup of tea but the idea of bringing God’s kingdom to the Nations gets my blood pumping in a way that I never thought was possible. So this leap of faith that I am getting ready to take will be very difficult with out a doubt and I am not blind to that…but leaping into the unknown with the Holy Spirit as my guide breaks any fears or worries I may have because the One who is in control knows what He is doing, He has the best plan possible for me and my squad and I know I am not the only one ready to FACE MY FEARS and dive in head first into this crazy World Race journey.
*SPLASH*
