One not having a stable home can be very anxious and can become very stressful. Having to carry luggage in and out of your car, up stairs and into homes you never thought you would be spending can and is very embarrassing. Having to set aside your pride and ask those around you for their house, their couch or their floor the minimum is not an easy thing to do. Even worse, not knowing if you would become a bother and have to move out the next day is beyond stressful. Yes it was a struggle and a trap that the devil had me in but through faith God has revealed more!
Ever since I came off to college, that is exactly what my life has consisted of. There has been months of having a home but just when I was getting comfortable I had to give it up and move onto the next roof. Frustration soon came into play but I knew I had a place to stay where ever I went because of the brothers and friends I had in Atlanta. One might say that only because I am devoted to Christ, everything in life becomes “easy peasy.” On the other hand it actually becomes harder! I am still human and God still gives me trials to go through because He needs me to know that without Him my life is truly not life.
As many of you know, I have recently started school at SCAD! It is amazing and way beyond what I expected. There is project after project and the more I get into them the less time I get to sleep. Although I am at a place I love and am very grateful for, I also had no time to look for a place to live and a place to call my own. I had no choice but to begin and have faith that although I had no place, God would provide me with the shelter to get by. Sure enough He has and I am beyond blessed to have such amazing friends to that have opened their doors!
But you see I’m a person who loves my space and who loves to create my own environment that describes my artsy personality. This of coarse has become my weakness that God knew I had to get over! Having to wake up way before class making sure I’m out before the owner of the house is respectful but can also get very tiring. To then sleeping in the car for an hour or having to make sure I am back home before everyone falls asleep. Can you tell how running around quickly becomes a problem? But nevertheless I am grateful to be able to have shelter so thank you Lord and friends!
Frustration and emotional distress soon hits the ceiling and breaks me right when I least expect it! One simple look and one simple word can say everything and that is when it all hit home. Why God are you allowing me to go through all this embarrassment? Why do I have to be a bother to all these people? Why can’t you just give me a place of my own just like you told me you would? Is it so much to ask fo? I thought you split the Red Sea but you can’t part a way for a place to call home? Tears quickly ran down and I completely broke beyond what I could imagine. I had now come to the end of all I could take and was asking God to take over.
I prayed and bowed before him trying to listen attentively to what He was trying to tell me.
“Aren’t you getting ready to become a missionary for a year?”
I vividly could see where the Lord was taking me, yet I did not want to accept the training camp He was putting me through!
In that moment it all made sense and I pleaded with God and for his forgiveness. I wanted to become a missionary for so long yet the one thing I was going to get accustomed to was my weakness. My trial in disguise was my present day weakness. Just when it seems like my hope was gone. Just when the devil thought he had dehydrated my dream. God put a song in my heart as a declaration of what was to come to pass!
“The tomb of soldiers watched in vain
was borrowed for three days.
His body there would not remain
OUR GOD HAS ROBBED THE GRAVE!”
– “Resurrecting” Elevation Worship
The devil thought he could trap me in my weakness and he thought he had me in his hands. He laughed in my face as I slowly was giving up on a dream GOD had placed in my heart. He added more weight every time I moved from place to place.
BUT GUESS WHAT DEVIL…
MY GOD ROBBED THE GRAVE and HE WILL FOR SURE FIND A PLACE FOR ME!!!!
No you can not rob my happiness!
No you can not tell me I do not have a home!
And no you will not win because Jesus already took care of it!
This is only a trial that God allowed me to be in because He was teaching me how to become a missionary. I was about to partake in an 11 month missionary trip to 11 different countries that I would have to call my home! He was teaching me that just when I thought I could no longer do this, He came in and fought my battle! A sound of a place soon came in and God once again showed me that I was His child and He was my Father! He is and will always be my river of living water.
To the enemy I tell you that I worship and am a child of a Heavenly Father who will never turn His back away. I know you hate that I worship Him but it only takes so long until God fights our battles and takes care of the enemy. Just like Pastor John Gray declared; the enemy does not hate you as a person, he hates the person who reigns over you! The enemy hates seeing you worship through the pain and through the trial! He hates seeing that no matter what he does you as a believer knows that this will only make you a better person!
I dare you to look at your problem and declare over it, “Don’t move!”
Let it not move until the river of living water flows through it ! Let it stand still until you have conquered it through Jesus! May your strength die and may the Lord and His power take over! Sow-Harvest-Reap! Although the picking is hell, the reward is well worth it!
As Always,
David the Chosen!
PS- Thank you Matt, Marco, Vanessa, Angelica and YGP for allowing me to stay for a couple of nights! May God bless you and may He stir up something in your life!
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