Right now, I’m in a odd season of life. In three weeks I leave which is such an odd thing to say. It seems like yesterday when I was applying to The Race, writing my first blog, and just starting fundraising. Since then life has been a whirlwind of school, graduation, and camp. Then suddenly I’m leaving, and I’m not sure thats something I’m totally ready to do. The biggest change that I’ve ever had is going from middle school to high school. Needless to say the next month holds the most change I’ve ever had in my life. Wrapping my head around that is something I’ve been struggling to do.
In the next month I will have traveled farther than I ever have in my life. I’ve been between Florida and Toronto, and been out of the Eastern Time zone once. The only time I flew was when I as 18 months old. I’m leaving the places I’ve known my entire life, and the comforts of home. I’m leaving my favorite coffee shop, and my comfortable bed. These places and things are easily replaced, but the people that make place a home will be sorely missed.
Leaving the people I love is painful. I will miss laughing hysterically over silly inside jokes about potatoes, playing Ultimate Frisbee late into the night, unwinding with a milkshake after an exhausting week, and the wonderful conversations I’ve had when tomorrow becomes today. I don’t know how to leave.
It’s easy to think “Oh, I’ll just rely on God for this and abide in Him.” But living that way is incredibly hard. There are days where I try to do it alone, and a crash and burn. There are way to many days where relying on God never makes it from my head to my heart. The last month I’ve had to rely on Him more than ever.
After training camp I knew the next season of life would require me to leave well, and I still haven’t figured that out. To answer your questions, yes I do want to sleep in a real bed and eat mashed potatoes. Yet, I’m running out of time.
Between now and launch there are so many things to put in order. Not only packing lists but also what leaving people looks like. Before I go I want to do anything and everything with you. I want to work hard with you and be able to just sit together. I’d love to laugh with you, and be able to cry together. So together, lets make these days count.
Love,
David
