All Through going on this trip I thought I knew who I was. I feel like a fish out of water. Back Home I was the center of attention. Now I feel like I am confused. I was the Life of the party. I was the strange and energetic person that everyone looked up to. Here I am just always out of words and tired, to tired to speak intelligently. Everyone around me, it seems is going non stop in conversation. My mind seems to take extra time to think about what I need to say. My Energy Level is so out of whack. Ten years of being mostly by myself and all of a sudden being shoved into non-stop community is overwhelming.
Five days out of my week I was by myself and only socialized on the weekend. Now I have to be around people for 7 days a week. Aaaagh!
Despite this weakness, something amazing happened. The Holy Spirit Moved on me and He moved all of a sudden into the lives of others I am conversing with. You can sense the presence of the Holy Spirit doing a work in the Heart of the People I am talking to. Its like I am the Seed Planter. For the first time I share with them How Much God Loves Them and wants a relationship With them. When I am talking to them I have the words to say, I remember verses, to the best of my ability, I share my life and weakness with people and Lord Willing they are changed for eternity.
They Asked If I was a Christian, I said yes I was a follower of Jesus. The next thing you know I am sharing Jesus with them. Out of the Spirit and Joy I just tell them about how much God wants a relationship with them. The said they were Christians, but gave answers like I go to church or have been baptized. It was so exciting to give them the Truth in Love. They didn’t pray to receive Christ, but I know now that I have a gift for Evangelism. This is the last gift I was expecting to receive after a lifetime of living in fear of man. Now I seek Gods Face for Wisdom and the Boldness to share the Gospel and Gods great desire to have a relationship with man.
So Pots and Pans was a ministry to bless the New Wine Conference and a chance to experience all kinds of ministry.
Now on my Journey with Jesus I am working on who I am. I am working on my Relationship with others and I am working on Loving others as much as I love How God Made me.
