Exodus 4:10-12 And Moses said unto the Lord, O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither heretofore, nor since thou hast spoken unto thy servant: but I am slow of speech, and of a slow tongue. 11 And the Lord said unto him, Who hath made man’s mouth? or who maketh the dumb, or deaf, or the seeing, or the blind? have not I the Lord?Now therefore go, and I will be with thy mouth, and teach thee what thou shalt say.
This last week the devil has been smashing me with inadequacy. Putting questions in my head that make me doubt my ability to fund raise and be effective on this trip. At first like a normal person I felt sorry for myself and questioned God, asking Him if He called the right person. A few days passed and I slowly began to realize nobody is adequate for God, but He in us makes us adequate. (If we are willing.) The problem is, its so easy to focus on our self and see the ugly and forget about the beauty of Christ.
Moses had a mountain in his mind he couldn’t get over. It was himself!! He couldn’t see pass the fact that he wasn’t attractive, or the fact that he was a poor speaker. Then God literally asks Him “Who hath made man’s mouth? Who maketh the dumb, or deaf, or the seeing, or the blind? Have not I the Lord?” God literally trys to bring Moses attention back to Himself and show Moses that He is all powerful and if your going to put your faith in anything put it in Me. That’s were I needed to align my attention!! I needed to just keep my eyes on God and off of myself.
We know how the story goes. God ends up using Moses in a great way and he is a key instrument in the relocation of Gods chosen people. He crosses the Red Sea, gives them the ten commandments and is just tremendously used by God.
I have a mountain in my life to, and It’s me!! It is the mountain in my mind that I was stuck on stressing over for days and periodically different times throughout my life. But God made me realize though prayer and reading this passage over and over.. The root of my problem is just a dirty state of pride. Where I am so focused on my abilities and what I can do. That I forget about Gods abilities and what He can do. His Power!! His Love!! His Provision!! So.. basically what I’m saying is, we all have a mountain in our mind. It keeps us from our greatest potential impact in ministry. Mine happens to be pride/self inadequacy. Phillippians 4:13 says I can do ALL things though Christ which strengthens me. God is giving me the strength to overcome this mountain and keep going! Not through what I can do!! But what He can do.. Don’t let this mountain in your ministry, be the mountain your ministry will die on.
Please Pray for me in this area of my life. Thank You!
PS-My next blog will be more light-hearted. Promise!
