INTIMIDATION
….. That is what I have felt trying to write this blog. Since coming back from camp I have been back and forth pre-writing what I would tell all my readers about training camp. I was ecstatic and in my mind I knew what I would write and was ready to share. I was not trying to make up anything. I lived it so why was it so hard to put in words. Every time I would get into it, somehow I would get distracted and lose my train of thought. I would keep saying I would do it later. Later has become a week and still not sure what to say.As I was going to church Monday evening I was asking my WR team to pray for me because I was speechless. As I was driving, God put in my heart why I was having trouble writing. Fasting and Prayer. I put these two essential things to the side and I let all the distractions take over. With this being said, it tells me I have actually put God to the side a bit. I cannot believe I did that. Guys I am human and as such I am admitting to you this. When we put God to the side, things will not ever go well. PLAIN TRUTH. God is always there and he does not want us to go through tuff times. Sometimes we get to involved with social media, electronics, negativity, our personal things and so on that we forget what is truly important in our lives.
I have been too worried and anxious about the future that I forgot to EMBRACE THE MOMENT. God always intends to give us the best. He never leaves us and is always there no matter what. We are the ones that pull away from him and in order for us to see his greatness we have to decrease ourselves so that he can increase.
Now that I have put out what was in my heart, I will continue with training camp. It was a wonderful experience. So much to stay and not enough space or time. Meet my group which is the Q Squad. They are wonderful people. Before camp I would have never imagined getting so close to strangers in just a few days. Or so I thought because they were no where near strangers. From the beginning since arriving at the airport I already felt like they were my family. I think we all bonded very quickly. I could have never foreseen the unity that was seen. WOW!!!
Now meet my actual team for the first few months. They are Awesome. God sure did a FINE job putting us together. It is awesome how God works. I love this team from day one. God put us together for a reason and we shall set out to do his work. “LOS MENSAJEROS”- The Messengers
Camp was such a great experience. There was so much I learned. From
Team building activities, different life scenarios, informative sessions, even just talking and getting to know the group. There were times I also got to talk to other squad people and that was great as well. I learned a little something from all of them. God has a plan for all.
Now there were some other things that were not so great. May I say YUMMY!!! Actually not bad(taste like sunflower seeds). Food was not the best but it taught me to not take for granted what I have at home. Especially CHOCOLATE. I am always saying I don’t care for it but I sure missed it and asked God for some. Thank God for our leaders that provided chocolate for us during the women’s day. I knew then that God answered prayers. LOL!!!
Then of course sleeping in a tent all week (except a few days). It was FREEZING…BRRRRRR!!!I definitely missed my warm bed those days. I think it would have been great without the cold. Texas girl not feeling the cold. I am a chicken to it. This was definitely a great experience because I was able to know how to prepare better. And did a lot of talking to God about this. There was so much more that went with this training, but I do not want to ruin it for a future World Racer.
What I went in expecting was what I received. I went in to training camp expecting God to work when it was his time and not mine. I told myself that everyone takes in situations differently and I was not going to be anxious about camp. God knows what he does and what he will gives us. We just have to surrender and let him take control. I have put my complete TRUST and FAITH in him. He knows what plans he has for me and I just have to be obedient. During camp a few times I did become anxious because I was not hearing from him. But then soon I remembered that I had let him have control. So I waited patiently. He had been there and I was learning, but it was not my time yet. On day 8 of camp I heard God loud and clear (of course not audible, but would have been cool). I had one of the people from camp that I did not know come to me and tell me I had GOD’s heart. WHAT!!!!! The lady told me so many wonderful things that God told her to tell me. Those things I had not told anyone and completely described me. I feel so honored to know these things, but what I get with it is also sadness. I see when someone is hurt and it makes me sad that I cannot help them. I wish I could make everyone smile, but when I can I will let them know there is more out there than their problem. I cannot change the world, but I can give you a little hope. God showed me there was hope when I did not feel like there was. LOVE is what have and a GREAT gift from above. Let us embrace it.
If anything I got from camp, it was letting go of some things. God also taught me Forgiveness, Greatness, Love, Unity, Vulnerabilty – which was hard to do but I let go of some things, and so much more…..I gained freedom.
I just want you to know that GOD is good and he will not leave you. No matter the situation you are in or the resources you have, always EMBRACE the moment.
