Close your eyes…
Imagine yourself alone, stripped of all of your comforts.. Normal beds, shelter, indoor plumbing, social media, COFFEE AND SO. MUCH. MORE. You’re forced to live in community with hundreds of other people with the only barrier you have at night between you and them are the four walls of a tent and a pair of headphones. You receive enough food for no other reason but to provide nourishment for your body. You’re able to take bucket showers and use baby wipes for any chance of having a clean body. You’re pushed into almost EVERY uncomfortable situation you can think of and forced to DEAL with those situations because you can’t run away from them.
I can definitely say i’m a positive person and that I look to the good in every situation i find BUT I’m not going to tell you that training camp was EASY for me. I’m not going to tell you that it was EXTREMELY comfortable for me. I’m not going to tell you that there weren’t times I asked… “God, are you sure this is right where you want me? Because i’m not so sure”.
I learned A LOT about myself in these 10 days..
I learned that I depend more on my Facebook, social life, and what I put in my body than the dedication and time I spend in prayer. I learned that even though i signed up for this Race I had yet to abandon ANYTHING in my life. Like i said, I learned A LOT. But most importantly..
I had more testimonial moments that I have ever had. God made it clear to me in more ways that one in all my moments of doubt that I am, in fact, EXACTLY where he wants me. He wanted to BREAK ME so he could BUILD ME and every single person that I am going to leave with in January.
It’s SO easy to get caught up in life and put yourself on autopilot, to not be present in every single moment, to miss ALL of the important things God puts into your path. We’re always present in the BIG moments in our lives… but what about the little ones? I challenge you, because i was challenged at camp, to BE PRESENT. PLEASE don’t miss out on those little moments because I can promise that those ones are going to be the BIG ones some day. The ones that allow you to open your eyes and WAKE UP!
I feel as though, i’ve spent A LOT of my life missing things. BUT NOT ANYMORE. God has given me the grace and love that I need and shown me that it’s time to take the reins, go on this adventure, and allow him to change my heart! I couldn’t be more excited for this and i am literally SOOOO thankful for everyone who has helped me with your positive words, prayers, and funds!
THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!!! Love you all!!!! xoxo
