Finally I Surrender

Obviously this past year was a
really amazing and challenging year for me. I knew that coming back home
was going to be an adjustment, but I just did not anticipate that the ways of
life in America would become so overwhelming. When I was overseas – I never
worried about money or the other things that now cloud my mind and
faith. And, so I struggle now between what is practical and where God is
asking me to step out in faith and trust Him.

God is so good to me, always has
been. Thankfully, He created me and knows all of my flaws. He also
knows how to speak to my heart and just how long He is going to have to gently
speak to my heart before I will give up and give in to what He wants for
me. Back in January (when I was in the Dominican Republic), God started
speaking to me about the possibility of working for AIM (Adventures in
Missions). It sounded fun and I knew that it was pretty much a dream job
for me….to live in the States, work with international missions as my job and
life, AND get to travel overseas on top of that! But, that whole raising
support thing (oh, and moving out of Texas) really just seemed like something I
could not give in to. But, over time – I let God speak to me about it and
it started to sound better and better. Well, He started to sound better
and better I suppose. 

So, I have given up on my fears and
I am beginning to walk into what seems like the biggest and scariest step of
faith I have taken so far in my life. I am walking in faith that God is
going to financially provide for me – not just for a one year trip – but for a
lifetime! With the economy the way it is and the misconception that “somebody else” will financially fund my trips … it can become an overwhelming thought that maybe this will all fall
apart and maybe I am going to crash and burn. But, how could I remove all
that I KNOW God is and all the ways He has told me that He is going to take
care of me. 1 John 4:18 says “There is no fear in love, but perfect love
casts out fear” and I know that the love God has for me is perfect and so I can
rest in knowing that there is nothing to fear. 

I would be honored if you would join
me in this next step in my life. I will begin working for AIM starting
next month and I need to raise $2500/month. I pray that you might consider
giving a monthly support of $25/month. You can do that by clicking HERE
and typing in your information.  So far, I have raised about $1800 in all, so your donation would be a huge blessing to me!