My Life- U Turn Sign
If you would have asked me a week ago what my plans were for after the world race I would have confidently given you an answer. Even a day ago, I would have told you that I was going to Nurse Practitioner school when I got home. Today is a new day, however, and I wont be giving you the same answer.
I want to lead a life filled to the brim of the passions God has placed inside of me. He has given me certain passions to effect His kingdom that He has given no one else. If I don’t use those passions who will? So I was thinking today. What are my passions?
I want to love on orphans, live with lepers, and touch the hearts of beggars. I want to pray over the sick, when medicine has done its all, and marvel as The Great Physician heals them. I want to speak Spanish, teach kids gymnastics, and ride elephants. Orphans, lepers, the sick, following Jesus, and loving people. These are my passions! Why do I need more school and more debts and more schedules in order to do this? I’m doing these things now!
I love being a Nurse! God first called me to be a nurse when I was 17 in Peru. And all through school I pushed so hard for the and now why do I want to be anything more? When I first came on this trip I was worrying a lot about whether or not I should go for my masters degree before the qualifications changed. I remember walking in Romania and God just telling me not to worry about it now. When the time comes He will tell me. So I stopped thinking about it altogether until 6 months later when I was riding on a bus with Daina in Kenya. I clearly felt God impressing on my heart to apply for my Master’s degree. I applied that day and was excited to see what God had in store. I’m not sure why He is changing things now, I just know that I trust Him. Maybe He wants me to have everything ready to go to school later, or maybe He just wants me to practice my U turn skills.
I feel like I was using school as a security blanket in some small way. School was somewhere I knew was safe because I’ve done it since the age of four. Its where I feel comfortable. Compared to the other option which would be charting the unknown. I feel a little bit like my life was turned upside down today. The uncharted waters are wide open for me now. And I’m ready to take a step into the places I’ve never been before. Jesus has a way of doing that to me. I guess He knows I like surprises:-)
So what’s next for me? The sky is the limit! Leper colonies in India, African children homes, Leadership training school, Travel nursing in Hawaii. Moving to Timbuktu, or mountaineering as a Tennessean! Who knows!! All I know is that I couldn’t be living a more exciting life than a life that is following Jesus. I’m wrecked for Him! Clearly wrecked, as my plans have shown. I really don’t know anything more. And that’s okay. I just want to dive in to His will, Risking it all!
