I am so discouraged right now. My fund raising seems to be standing still. I put jugs in a couple of commercial places in town and went to get one tonight: 42 cents. That's it. Thats all that was donated in a week of sitting on the counter of a really busy gas station. It has just really hit me that I have 40 days to raise $2700. Now I know that God has done some really amazing things in 40 days and he totally has a thing for the number 40 (look at Moses), but I'm having a hard time believing and trusting Him for this. I am trying, but I'm finding it impossible to just let go. I don't know how.
And of course, with the money problems comes the little voice that says, "you can't raise it in time" "this isn't what you are supposed to do" "you're going to look like an idiot". I am trying to squash it whenever it comes but it's hard. I am a what-if type of person so my mind is running rampant with worse-case scenarios. It sucks.
Don't get me wrong, I am sooo incredibly grateful for the ones who have already given and who have pledged but I still need more. And honestly, I feel somewhat hurt by the fact that more of my friends haven't responded to my message. I sent my support letter to everyone on my friends list on facebook. I have friends on there from past mission trips, church, and the BCM at my college. I haven't heard back from hardly anyone. Not even an," I'll be praying for you."
It has all just added up to a very down Daniele. I am praying and fighting against it but not making much progress. So please say a prayer for me. I need it.
