Last month in Cambodia was hard for me
personally. Starting off the month I found out that one of my best
friends back home was in a bad car accident and is in a coma.
Along with some other personal things it was not the best start to a
month. Ministry was great but when I heard about my friend I decided
to stay back from ministry for a couple days to process everything
that was going on.
I have know people that have passed
away. Usually they are parents of friends. In those times I felt
more for my friends’ loss than my for own but this was different. This
is really the first time that I have ever really experienced
something this serious with a close friend and I don’t know how to
deal with it. The fact that I am not in the States doesn’t help
either. I check the internet when I can but it is not the same and I
haven’t heard anything about his status in a while so I am not sure
if anything has changed. This is definitely one of the hardest
things that I have had to deal with on the Race. Not being able to
be close to those you care about in their time of need is a horrible
feeling. I spent a lot of time in prayer and thinking about
everything. I continue to trust in God and that through all of this His will is carried out but I still feel lost about all of this. My
team and some of the others on my Squad have been really supportive
but there is only so much they can do because I don’t even know what
I need during this time. A lot of this month I just felt like I was
coasting because I didn’t know what else to do.
Things are getting better. I still
don’t know what to do expect other than to pray and trust in God. I don’t feel
like I am coasting anymore and that is a good start.
friend is out of the coma and aware. He is going to need a lot of
time to recover from his injuries but I know that he has faith in the
Lord and is surround by family and friends.
