Priceless Love that can never be bought.
I just wanted to update you on some stuff with Michelle.
I left you all with some diary entries of nights we have spent with Michelle.
Some more things have happened since then!
We went on a date with Michelle 3 days ago. We took him to "Cafe de Siam" for lunch. He started to tell us that he is unhappy in his job and hates it so much. He said he is thinking of leaving the bars for good and going to Bangkok to try and get a job working in a factory.
He said that working in the bars is not giving him enough money.
Business has been low and he doesn't make any money unless he gets customers.
He then told us that he isn't able to pay his rent.
We sat and poured into Michelle for a while. We told him that he is talented and that he must believe in having a good future.
I told him that if he hates the bar then he should go to Bangkok.
We then went for a massage 🙂 it was so nice.
It was nice for Michelle to just have some time to relax!
We then walked Michelle back home. He said that he hopes he gets "lucky tonight" because of his living situation. This made me so sad. I can't bare the thought of Michelle going out with a customer! He deserves so much better in life!
I gave him money for his room that night.
The following night we were going to go and see Michelle but we weren't able to. We text him to let him know. He text back saying he is worried because he owes his land lord 2500 baht. He said he didn't know what to do as this was his last chance to pay up.
I was put in an uneasy situation. I really didn't know what to do.
I love Michelle so much but I am not always able to fix money problems:(
I text him and asked if he is really wanting to get back to Bangkok. He said he is. So I said that I would pay for his bus to Bangkok but couldn't pay the room rent. He said " Thank you, but I cant run without paying."
I guess he knows that if he runs without paying then he can never come back.
I said that I would come and see him for lunch the next day ..
That whole night I was uneasy and had no peace.
I really didn't know what to do.
I had asked many people for prayer in what should be done.
The next morning I told my team the whole situation. I told my thoughts and asked what they thought I should do.
We decided to use some date money to pay for Michelle's room rent and for his bus ticket to Bangkok, plus some extra for a couple of nights rent in Bangkok.
I know that just giving money will not fix what is going on. But for right now in this moment – it fixed things.
We believe we helped Michelle move 1 step forward instead of being 10 steps back. This will let Michelle breath a little.
Me and Jen went to meet Michelle at the bar to take him for coffee.
Michelle didn't look his normal self. He looked exhausted and a nervous wreck.
He then told us that he sat outside the bar to 6 am on the bench at the front of the bar – hoping to get a customer.
When I heard him say this – it broke my heart.
He said that his friend took money from the bar till and gave him it for the landlord, but that the money had to be back in the till before the bar opened that night.
We all went for coffee and we chatted about him going to Bangkok. He said he can get a job in a factory. He said its not ideal but that he needs to be happy.
He said that the bars make him so sad. I don't think a factory will make Michelle happy but i know it will be a million times better than working in a grotty bar that is depressing the life out of him!
Michelle said he wants to get to Bangkok as soon as he can. He said he cant stay in the bar any longer. Praise the lord!
I also encouraged Michelle to call up for the english class. He seemed really excited about this. I hope he calls. I would love to know of someone going in and keeping the friendship going.
I wanted this to happen incase he doesn't go to Bangkok so that he will have someone else in his life!
God really moved and gave us so many opportunities to pour into Michelle and encourage him about his future!
Before we left – I gave michelle a card with money inside.
I said " This will not solve all your worries but it solves your worries you have the now. Please get to Bangkok" he took the card and burst out crying.
I know he hates taking the money but me and Jen have realised that he really has no one else he can turn to. He asked us to go and see him at the bar that night.
That night we returned and he was so excited to see us.
He asked us if we had eaten – which we hadn't so we ordered some pad thai 🙂
We had one of the best nights of ministry I have ever had!
We sat and ate food. We laughed. We looked through a fashion magazine together, we even ate worms and crickets lol.
Lol – yes… I ate a worm and a cricket :/ yuk!!!
Michelle payed for our dinner as a thank you. It was a beautiful blessing that we didn't want to receive but he said he had got a customer earlier and that he insisted that we let him.
Michelle's bar friend sat with us too and chatted with us. Then natalie the bar owner came and sat with us as well.
It really felt like friends hanging out and having fun.
Michelle told us that it feels like he has known us for years.
He also asked us to stay 🙁
He told us that he remembers the first time we ever came in to the bar.
He said he was so happy that we returned. And kept on returning.
He then had friendship bracelets for us made they both said " WE R FRIEND ALWAY OIL"
Oil is his nickname. His mum calls him it because he has dark skin.
He gave us the bracelets and we burst out crying. He cried too.
He wants to see us on Wednesday and he has asked if he can come to the bus stop to say goodbye.
I said " Will you not need to be at work?" and he replied " I don't care about work i am coming to bus stop!"
We sat in the bar with him till after midnight. I could have stayed all night.
Please continue to pray for Michelle. That was our last night in the bar. We don't know what will happen-will he go to bangkok or carry on in the bar?. Pray that God leads him to make the best decision. That he will be prompted by the holy spirit. We have seen huge results. Gods done a great work in Michelle to the extent that he doesn't want to be in the bars.
So please pray for him! He needs God more than anybody!
My heart is seriously wrecked! It hurts! I have the biggest lump in my throat 🙁
I said to Jen " I hate hurting but I wouldn't have it any other way"
I really wouldn't. I believe God is letting me feel a glimpse of how he feels. .
Gods heart breaks for Michelle. He loves him a great deal.
One thing I have learnt from this month is that Love is everything.
I swear if you don't have love you don't have anything!
Gods love is priceless and Michelle is experiencing the priceless love that can never be bought by a lustful man but its given by our father just because He is Love.
He loves michelle where he is at.
I am experiencing this love from God because I am simply Gods vessel that is pouring the fathers heart out to Michelle.
Gods love is powerful crazy stuff.
I promise – actions speak louder than words.
Love acts will get you places you never imagined!
Love Dani xxxx
