Leaving Nicaragua has been the hardest ting for me. I remember telling my friend Leigh that I did not want to leave. I wanted to stay I did not care about seeing other countries. I was leaving the kids that I spent every single day with for 3 weeks. The kids that impacted my life and that I got attached to. I fell in love with the kids at Sicrin Orphanage. I also remember saying “how could I love other kids more then I love them right now?” I wanted to be there for them and guide them in their path with the Lord.
Yesterday as I left I could not hold my tears. I felt like a part of my heart was left in Ometepe, Nicaragua. Also it made it harder because everyone at the orphanage told me I should stay and not leave. But, I knew I had to do God’s will not mine.
I knew I loved those kids with God’s love not mine. I also know that he will take care of them and put people in their lives that care for them. At that point I was thinking God has control of everything. It is not up to me to love them and guide them. They are also God’s children and he loves them more then me. Leaving countries has been the hardest thing for me because I always want to stay, but I know God has given me a peace about leaving each time. He restores my heart every time…
