So this months ministry has been amazing so many new different opportunities. One being speaking to men’s ward in a mental institution weekly. While working with an evangeliste who does this on the reg. We gained access to the women’s ward where he doesn’t usually minister in. We walked into this room with nothing except women lying and sitting on the floor. Some with stone cold angry faces, some bug eyes staring some confused and some smiling happy to see us.
We started to worship and pray and lift up the name of Jesus. The Presence of God came so strong on me to declare the power of His resurrection in that room. I felt like I had been cloaked with His authority in a new degree standing in the face of darkness knowing that greater is He in me than the evil spirits holding these women captive!!!
Before I knew about this trip I had been running from the call to preach. I’ve seen the shows that people put on in church’s and the hypocrisy and wanted nothing to do with a mic. Even when I was on the worship team at my church I would face away from the crowd and barely hold the mic up.
Well more and more I felt God dealing with my fear of public speaking. I told him, “ok if I’m to do this then you need to open doors where I would have to preach and overcome this regularly.” Well sure enough I’m thrown into public speaking all along the race. Most of the time you find out 10 minutes before your about to speak and so you just submit and trust God. I realized I have a testimony and how dare I rob people and not share it. How could I keep this Word to myself, this intimate relationship and the things He’s showed me after He paid such a high price for me to have this intimacy, freedom and power.
So contining to say yes to all these doors being opened to share the gospel I just trusted Him to show up. I wanted none of me and Him to just take over and He sure did. I just continued to open my mouth and He flowed right out and people have been touched many saved.
Well this particular time I never experienced. Now I know it’s not about feeling, but as I began to preach in this women’s ward the spirit of God was on me so strong I actually stopped mid way and had to just stop and thank Him at this moment I couldn’t say anything but thank you Holy Spirit. I continued to preach on and when I was done tears just poured out my eyes. I never felt the fear of the Lord like that and I can hardly explain it. It was as if I was trembling. Trembling at the weightiness of bringing His Word before people so entangled in darkness.
I had a David moment “who am I?” I was in awe and humbled the way that He would flow out of me and I didn’t dare want any of me in that way. I felt like my insides were shaking and I was tingling all over. Standing in the face of darkness I was wrecked in His power and anointing and it was like a new reverence for the Lord came upon me to not dare get in the way. I just cried after.
What an honor and a privalage that our Creator would want to use us! My cry for God to keep my heart pure intensified. I don’t want anything to get in the way. I refuse to preach this gospel with a heart that is not completely sold out for Him. Or a heart that allows the slightest wrong attitude. I was undone and marked by Him in a new way.
We also went out one morning to evangelize the streets. I have honestly never been a fan to just walk the streets and tell people about Jesus and then hand out a track with the question where will you go when you die on it. I always hid behind the excuse of–well I should develop a relationship with them first. But watching my host walk by so many just loving on them and telling them Jesus loves them it made me realize just how many people I am walking by with the answer.
I was reminded that people are dying every day around me just like my brother–I presented the message of salvation and let him know hell is a real place. He gave his life to Jesus and a year later he died. It was not God’s will for him to die so young but unfortunately we make bad choices that lead to destruction and cut our lives off early. God foresaw that decision he would make and will not violate our will, but He will use the Body of Christ–the Church, to pray for people and preach the gospel to win them to Heaven.
So we just went to the market and shared the love of God with people and led them to Jesus. Particularly these few guys were hollering at us and wanted to take a picture with us. Ya know seemed like they were hitting on us. Well I just boldly went right up to them asking them if they knew Jesus and preaching the gospel. Their attitude changed real quick. One gave their life to Jesus. After it was all done they didn’t even want to take a picture…lol. Ha conviction! Love it!!
Shout out to my amazing host and now dear friend who lives daily evangelism in her life to almost everyone she passes and has caused me to step it up!! Love this God connection that we have been able to fuel eachother!!
Reminder DONT GIVE ANYMORE ON THIS ACCOUNT!!
