October 18, 2016
I must say it was a challenge adapting the first week just with living with so many people after being so independent so many years, but truly this is perfect training for marriage!!
But I hit the place of complete satisfaction of knowing that Home is in my heart because He is there and in Him is home. I am learning to see everything through the lens of His light and love, things don’t seem to bother me like they did when I first came. I even had a moment of thinking to touch one of the gieco’s on the wall. Lol That is huge a huge freedom!!
Peace floods my soul and the language barrier with the people is no longer a frustration because I remember to just be aware of His Presence in me and to release it everywhere I go. Sunday at church we sang up on platform and after service the ones that knew some words in English came up to me and said, “you happy!!!” With huge smiles on their faces– just knowing that I don’t have to do anything but be the joy He has made me just trumps any performance we can ever do.
I’ve been in ministry for a while now and find many people(including me at one point) find their identity in what they do in ministry, their title, position, all the great works they do and creative ideas they come up with, but it so rewarding when I’m unaware of anything I ever do and yet He shines through me just by my being, and that people are blessed. I love it because I can’t take credit for it and steal Gods glory.
I rather someone’s tumor fall off because I walked passed them and His Presence destroyed it, and me not even know it rather then me laying hands on someone and think I’m something because they got healed. Don’t get me wrong I’m all about laying hands on people, but I want to get to a place that His glory just oozes out of me.
I have always despised the Christian show especially cause I used to be a apart of it!! And want to be so careful that my heart is right in not taking credit.
October 19, 2016
There is a group of taxi moto’s and Tuk tuk drivers on a corner that I pass running everyday. They get a kick out of me running. No one in Cambodia seems to knows what running is. Everyone stares at me like I’m crazy and people have stopped on their motobikes next to me and say “why you run?” I say, “exercise”
This one taxi-moto guy runs next to me but doesn’t speak english. But I start holerring yeah yeah, and he starts cheering back. So now He puts his hand out and I grab his hand and raise it and we run together for about ten seconds cheering and now I’m cheering and saying hallelujah and he repeats hallelujah!! If that is communication I’m down with it–to see him excited and He not know He is being touched by the Presence of God every time I grab his hand and say hallelujah. Believing he is going to encounter God like never before!!
Hello is generic most people know that. But I thought maybe hallelujah is too and since they are all hollering it too especially the kids I’m running with it!! Wahoo just getting them to say the right thing!!!
Today we also started painting the inside of children’s home. That was exciting, I can’t really explain the moment I had in God as I was rolling the paint up the wall just how humbling that I get to be a part of sowing into these children. Just one of those overwhelming moments ya know?
October 22, 2016
So I’m pretty much over the bug thing I actually held a gieco!! And last night a swarm of new bugs that we never seen invaded the house last night and when in the past I would be freaking out now I’m just like whatever and flick them off me. But they like seriously were all over, we swept piles of them up!!
Today we went to another village church and ministered to the children. Some of them just dive into your arms and just want to take them home!! And there’s always that temptation to think what else can you do for them, but I’m so believing with every hug and every touch and every prayer over them that there will be an imprint of the Presence of God in their life and He will send laborers in their path to continue to lead them closer to Him.
October 23, 2016
I’m finding it’s not even about living in a fancy house and driving a fancy car and wearing a coach bag over your shoulder, but a Peace and contentment that you find in Him that wherever you are you are fulfilled in Him and with that walk we walk in freedom from anything the enemy would try to throw at us.
October 25, 2016
So I’m able to communicate “Can I pray for you?” In their language. So my guy that cheers and runs with me speaks no English so I asked him and he shook his head yes and I prayed in English over him and he just nodded his head the whole time in total reception!! Come on Holy Ghost get him!!
I’m having issues posting pictures on here so I might post them on Facebook!!
