Quick note: I haven’t been much in the mood for blogging this past month–well, not nearly as much as I have been in the past and what not but in a period of restlessness and needing to just process through some stuff, I wrote a couple so yea, this is the first of 3 right in a row. Can’t guarantee you’ll get many more anytime soon so just enjoy these while they’re here.
So, I’m sitting here on the train, somewhere across the border into Hungary. It’s 3:21 in the morning and apparently we’ll be sitting here for 2 hours or so. Why? I don’t really know but it’s all good. Who wants to make it into Budapest at 5 am anyway? So what can you do at 3:21 in the morning? I suppose I can sleep. I’ve tried that though. Every time I do I seem to be woken up by passport control or someone wanting to see my ticket. I suppose I can read. I’ve done that though too. I read an entire book already-from start to finish. Well, I suppose I can reflect back on my day then…
Actually, no. I’m not going to simply reflect on my day. I’m going to reflect on something I’m taking from this day because frankly, today sucked. What I can and will reflect on though is an awesome thing my teammate Ashley Higgins said to me earlier that was brought up again in the book I just read. I’m going to reflect on God and just how great He is, specifically the way He meets us where we’re at, regardless of where we’re at!
How crazy awesome is it that God doesn’t ask us to give Him 100%? Well, back that up. He’d love for us to give Him 100% but, how crazy awesome is it that His love doesn’t require us giving Him 100%? It simply requires our desiring it. I know on days like today, days where I’m just feeling down for the count and unable to do much of anything, there’s not a chance that I can give God 100%. Isn’t it great though that He doesn’t require me to meet Him half way? I mean, how awesome is it that He pursues us and He meets us where we are, even if that place is a measly 37%. I know that’s probably about all I gave Him today (and that’s probably an overstatement!). But you know what? He showed up anyway. He met me at my place of disbelief. He met me at my anger. And regardless of the fact that I was hesitant, regardless of the fact that I didn’t have any more to give Him, He met me where I was at because He loves me and He desires for me to stand in His truth and be free from the lies I’ve been holding on to.
And tomorrow, I’ll strive for more. But for today, I have to offer what I can, all 37% of it, and simply remember: it’s not about me anyway.
Sometimes a 70% commitment is 100% of all we have to give. And God is there, in the middle of our “meager” 70%, recognizing the seeds of growth in what we’re giving him. God will show up in whatever percentage we give him, which motivates us to give even more. Messy Spirituality by Michael Yaconelli
Oh and funny, as I hit submit, my computer is at 37% charged….
