Today, we are 34 days from Training Camp and 115 days from launch. That’s not a lot of time. Am I prepared? Suuuuureeee… as prepared as I am going to be, and here is where the excitement, nervousness and a little anxiety set in.
I have most of my gear. All the big things I need, for sure. I am almost 50% funded (yes!) which is ahead of schedule! But I don’t know that I’m “prepared” and I don’t know that any of us are completely prepared for what is about to happen. Everything you read (because you will read, a lot about this experience) and all the conversations I have had point to the simple fact that life is about to change… BIG! and there isn’t a fool proof way to be prepared for it.
I’ve spent the last several years creating a “life” and one that was directed by me. I chose where I was going, what I was doing, what I was going to buy. I created a life where I had a house, a good job, friends that I love. A life where I was in charge. In this time, every time something didn’t go “according to plan” I always had that feeling like “maybe I wasn’t ready yet,” or “maybe I’m not done yet.” I wasn’t ready to settle down, or stay in the same place, or give up this or that. Nevertheless, these are all experiences that I feel where important and necessary for me to be here. Without them, I wouldn’t know that I could create a life, that I could … adult, or that I could give it all up. But now I know… and I’m ready (or at least as ready as you can be).
I wasn’t done adventuring, I wasn’t done serving, I wasn’t done finding who I am personally and who I am in Christ. When I think of this opportunity I’ve been blessed with I’m forced to reflect on all those “maybe I wasn’t…” thoughts, because maybe… this is WHY “I wasn’t.”
So am I prepared? I’m going to go with … no… but am I excited? YES! nervous? ABSOLUTELY! Jump-up-and-down, what do I do with my hands, ecstatic? YOU BET!
My heart leaps every time I get to have a conversation, or post on Facebook about it. I am crazy excited when I see someone offer to support me, or show up on my fundraising page without me knowing (awesome surprise!). Put simply … I CAN’T WAIT.
So thanks. Thanks for your support, thanks for reading, sharing, “liking,” praying and whatever else it is that you do to keep this going. Because without each and every one of you… I’d still being thinking “maybe I wasn’t…”
