Our last week in Manila, my team Karis, decided we wanted to take Mario’s family (from the tunnel) out to a nice dinner before we left. We thought about ordering pizza and bringing it to them but realized that they most likely don’t get out much and have probably never even stepped food in a mall before. Sure enough we were right. Maricor, Mario’s granddaughter, told us it was the best night of her life. It was not only her first time really getting out of the tunnel, but her first time stepping foot in a mall and eating pizza! Crazy.
So we went…fourteen of us piled into two trykes, then jumped on a jeepney to take us to the TayTay Mall. We ordered a whole lot of pizza, making sure that it was more than enough but I noticed that after one slice most of the family wouldn’t eat anymore. Not only that, they were so shy. We had a table full of food and bottomless fountain drinks for them and when the waiter came to fill their cups they would say they didn’t want anymore. I was really confused. I thought to myself, “Do they not like the food?” Nope. They loved it. They loved the coke too. I just didn’t get it.
Later I was journaling and writing out these thoughts of confusion when the Lord reminded me of Mephibosheth in 2 Samuel 9 (read it when you get a chance). Its a story of God’s Grace that has come alive to me now more than ever. In it the Lord was showing me how much I was like Mario’s family. The King has seated me at His table and there is a spread for me to mow down on and I’ve only been munching on the appetizer salad and drinking the water (thats usually free). God is showing me that there is a big juicy steak and if I would just eat it without worrying about how much its going to cost me I would realize what I’m missing out on. I’ve been seated at His table for over four years now and I’m still eating the appetizers out of shame, fear, guilt and a poverty mentality. My God is a great God who has taken away all my shame, driven out all my fear, redeemed all guilt and blessed me infinately! Just like I was watching Mario and his family to enjoy the pizza and endless soda, God has invited me to His table and is watching and waiting for me to ‘get it’. To understand my inheritance and receive it so that I can turn around and give it away.
I think I’m starting to get it. I’m pretty sure I’m not all the way there but I want to be there. Please continue to pray for me and my team and we receive seed to sow into the nations!
*sorry if this is more of a rambling post…I didn’t even check for misspellings so bare with me. 🙂 Thanks for reading!
