support, still needing $12,175.00
9/06/08 I have $11,909.00 in
support, still needing $1,891.00
week. My Father is crazy faithful. I’ve definitely repented like crazy for
doubting. On August 30th, I
was at a water sports event with my church’s youth group when I found myself
all of a sudden freaking out. I was
talking to one of my awesome supporters Steve about life and God when all of a
sudden I became overwhelmed with the circumstances around me. I just started crying and Steve asked me,
“What’s wrong kid?” and the only thing I could muster out was, “I’m just
stressin'”. Immediately Steve began to
pray for me and speak peace and faith over me and rebuke the enemy. As soon as he said Amen, I was overcome with
the peace of my Father.
The only way I could
describe that momentarily lapse of judgment is by relating it to Peter in Matthew
14:22-23. In the verses, the boat that
the disciples are in has drifted to the middle of the sea and is being tossed
by the waves and wind. In the fourth
watch (between 3am-6am, seriously…why is it always in the fourth watch?) of the night, Jesus went to them, walking on the
sea. The disciples saw Jesus walking on
the sea and were troubled thinking He was a ghost and began to cry out in
fear. Immediately, Jesus spoke to them,
saying “Take courage, do not be afraid”. Peter answered Him saying, “Lord, if it is You, command me to come to
You on the water”. So Jesus told him to
come and when Peter had come down out of the boat, he walked on water to go to
Jesus. PETER WALKED ON WATER…TO GO TO
JESUS! Crazy. He had his eyes fixed on Jesus and nothing else mattered. BUT, when he took his eyes off Jesus
and saw the wind was boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink he cried
out, saying “Lord save me!” Immediately,
despite disappointment, Jesus stretched out His hand and caught him and said to
him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?”. Grace.
so easy to get caught up in the wind and waves of life all around me. It didn’t take more than a second for me to
become overwhelmed with my circumstances and for fear to come into my
heart. I took my eyes off of Jesus and
looked around at the craziness going on around me. I needed over $12,000 for the race still, doctor’s release, to
buy insurance, etc. When I wasn’t
looking at Jesus, $12,000 became so much. After Steve prayed for me, I saw Jesus again and He reminded me that He
is bigger. He told me that my only job
was to keep my eyes fixed on Him and watch Him work a miracle in my life. And that He did. I just mailed over $3,000 in checks to AIM and just yesterday
morning found an envelope sealed in my purse with my name on it. It had 100 bucks in it! He is crazy faithful.
