Was BLIND- now I see

 

So most of you have read my last blog (I hope) and have now realized that within a week i made the decision to come to the University of the Nations in Kona, Hawaii to do DTS which is Discipleship Training School. God provided all the funding for my first phase- the lecture phase and I am still always amazed at His faithfulness and why in the world He would pick ME to experience all of this!  If I’m honest with myself and honest with you guys i came into this place with a pretty prideful mind. Out of ALL the experiences and amazing revelations I had last year while on the World Race.. i figured all i would learn here would just be a bonus or an addition to those., that we would just dive deeper into the things that i had already figured out in the last year. Yet again.. like God always does and always will do :)  He decided to totally crush any preconceived thoughts or notions that i may have concerning this next season of my life. Little did i know that I wasn’t just signing up for another mission trip that just happened to have 12 weeks of courses on who God is, what he is.. etc etc all the things i know of course because i have been taught them my whole life… OHHHH NOOO WAYYYY was that what He had in store for me.  In the last three days I have learned more about God and His love for me than ever before in my entire life. I guess you could say i always knew the right things to say and the right way to make people think i believed more than i did.. but i guess (even fooling myself) that in the back of my mind i always had some doubts or wrestled with tons of questions as to why in the world He would make us or why He would love us.. and what the whole point of Christianity is anyway.

MY LIFE IS NOW CHANGED

As I’m writing this my body is so completely exhausted from worshiping Him alll dayyyy!!! Whether it be from learning more revelation from the incredibly wise Andy Byrd, from praying for the nations and worshiping for hours, to doing landscape around the university as my daily work duty. ALL of this i used to praise Him… for counting me as worthy when I KNOW i am soooo unworthy. I am NOTHING compared to His greatness!! GAH why in the world would he pick the scum that i had become to make whole and invite me back into His family without even a second thought to the way i had turned my back on Him.

Today we heard great revelation that God has revealed to Andy from the parable of the prodigal son which i have heard a million times but never in the way we explored it today. It is such a great example to the way our Father treats us.. His children.. me- His daughter.

Despite my filth.. despite my junk, my dirty secrets (which is never a secret to Him) despite EVERYTHING that i have ever done to pretty much spit in His face,,,, despite all that,…. He wants to demonstrate His love to us. He wants to clothe us in His Righteous Robes.. His BEST robes..not because of our merit but because of HIS.  He wants to put the family ring back on our finger.,. claim us as HIS CHILDREN… show the world that we belong to Him.. He wants to put sandals on our feet to remind us that we aren’t slaves to Him… even when we are the worst of the worst He will never turn His back on us.. He will always claim us as His child..He says NO you are not a slave to me.. YOU are my daughter…

WoW

Why in the world would i NOT want to serve a father like that?!

Its so good to know that the God of all existence created us to be in perfect relationship with Him. That Because of HIS worth and not mine.. He had the ability to come to this earth that He created to become MAN in the lowliest form and to give Himself as the final sacrifice so that we would NO LONGER have to live a life under the weight of brokenness and shame. He has given us the FREEDOM to be SLAVES for His righteousness. Our sacrifices will never in a million years measure up to the amount we gain for His sake… So in actuality.. we never really have to sacrifice…

God made us so that we would CHOOSE to worship and serve Him.. of course He could make us so that we would have to… but isn’t it so much better and such a privilege to be able to look at an “idol” and look and God and say.. yeah I PICK YOU! We have been given the amazing option of willfully loving Him. The Joy of even in the midst of all pain, struggles, poverty, rejection, loss, and pain that we choose to love Him anyway. To know that in the end..  We WIN.. We get to spend ETERNITY worshiping the Lord of All.. The Great I AM, the God of the Universe who has NO beginning and NO end.. WOW… He is so good to us.

Thank you mister Andy Byrd for so many revelations and sooo much more than i could even fit into one blog! My eyes and ears are now open.. and I am declaring a NEW HOLY in my life!

So i found out this week that I will be traveling to North East Asia on my ministry outreach!! I cannot wait and if you have more questions on details as to where- email me because it is a little confidential! But my school tuition is funded and now I am seeking a ton of covering in PRAYER and finances for my outreach! It will cost between $4000-$5000 and I just KNOW God will provide :)(<

And if you all know of anyone who would be interesting in praying and helping me please spread the word and my blog site!
If anyone is looking to partner with me financially, here is the link and information to support me
https://apply.uofn.edu/onlineappdocs/onlinepayment.cfm

Part 1
Crystal Adams
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DTS- fire and fragrance
January 2012
Part 2
Mark Student outreach