In the past couple of years in my life i have come to the point where nothing seems to matter. I go to work come home- Sundays and Wednesdays i go to church if i’m not working. I see my family i talk to people–but not about what really matters. I have gotten to where I go to work and I just blend in. People know I’m a Christian because I tell them I am–I have gotten to the point where I live mainly for me and not for Christ. I look back on my life in the past few years and there are times that i feel so ashamed that i break down and cry. There have been doors opened that i shut and opportunities that I walked away from. I refuse to let this continue when the Lord calls me this time. I will listen. I will be waiting. I will be ready. I choose to be willing and pliant and usable for my God.
