My last day on the World Race, so many mixed feelings as I embark home. My heart is overflowing with peace, love, sadness, and excitement. My race has been a little different than most. As we were all called to come on this race, I was called to come back under difficult circumstances. The first time deciding to be obedient to the Lord was hard enough. Deciding to give up my comforts, sell my home and give away my worldly possessions was a hard process. The second time was even harder. In month three, I contracted chikungunua and had to go home for healing. After a month of trying to heal, I wasn’t better. My head was still pounding, my body was still in excruciating pain and I was left with the decision whether to come back on the race or not. To any logical person it would make sense to stay home and get better, but I knew my journey on the World Race wasn’t over. As I cried out to the Lord asking Him whether I should go back, I heard Him say “I’m not finished with you on this journey.” My weeping turned into laughter and my worry turned into peace once I heard His words. Despite the pain, despite worrying family members thinking I’m crazy for leaving when I was obviously in pain, I returned to the race and landed in Uganda. You know what…once I landed in Uganda I wasn’t in pain anymore. My pain was gone. The Lord healed me because I was obedient and walked boldly in faith.
Since that time the Lord has shown me the most unbelievable, indescribable moments, situations, visions, landscapes, and most importantly people. He has slowly been showing me all of this to show me more of who He truly is. While experiencing His love and marvels, He has been transforming me from the inside out. He is always going to be working on me and I love that He is shaping me to be more like Him. I love that He’s given me purpose and visions of starting a ministry “to open eyes that are blind, to free captives from prison and to release from the dungeon those who sit in darkness.”
Today I’m leaving my squad a month early. It has not been an easy decision, but I know it’s the right one because the Lord has given me complete peace and joy about it. I few months ago in Thailand, I fell off a bike and injured my back. That injury has lead to more pain in my feet. The kind of pain where it’s difficult to walk. Through much prayer and counsel, I’ve decided to go home and get better medical attention. I’m walking home injured, without a job, or a plan besides knowing the Lord wants me to start a ministry to empower women who have been in physical and spiritual captivity from abuse, prostitution & sex trafficking. With all of these things up in the air, I’m coming home with complete peace and faith because I know the Lord will provide everything that I need because He always has in my life. I know the Lord is wrapping me in His goodness and has His hand on my life as He always does.
I am leaving one month early, but I’m leaving in celebration of everything the Lord has done in my life over the past ten months. The direction of my life has forever changed and I want to give him glory for it ALL!
