Being in a city in Vietnam during prime spring break time brought back a lot of memories from college. The night life was poppin but with every girl I saw I always thought “that was me” and it pushed me to write this blog that I’ve been waiting to write for a while. One of my squad mates challenged the women of our squad to write two letters to yourself, one from Satan and one from God. It was so refreshing, If you’re a believer I urge you to try this. I got so much freedom from it.
Here’s the first letter:
Dear Courtney,
You are worthless. You aren’t even smart enough to finish college or become a nurse. You just think that running/moving away from your problems is the answer. Others will always be chosen over you because they’re always going to be better. You’ll never be good enough for anything. You are ugly. You will never be as pretty as the next girl. You’ll never be able to look at your body and feel happy. There’s always something that needs toned or slimmed so hide your body so people don’t have to see that. You can’t trust anybody, if you tell them the truth about your life and your struggles, they will judge you. Life is boring outside of drinking and using drugs. Life is better when you depend on yourself for everything. Life is better when you have a nice bottle of wine waiting for you when you get home but you can only enjoy yourself by drinking all of it. You will always be viewed as a party girl, the girl who beer bongs with the boys and is always down to shotgun. You are always going to be the girl who is finishing off the bottles of liquor at the end of the night, only to get sick… but hey that means you won’t gain weight in college, right? Boys will always view you as an object only useful for sex. They will never appreciate you for your mind or heart, only for your body. So when it comes to boys it’s easier to just use them. You will never find that love that you’re looking for. You will never be happy in life.
-The Enemy
Check out my next blog for the second letter..
