We are officially in month three! Time is flying by here and I am trying to soak up every second of it. As fun and awesome as all of the pictures on social media look, the reality is that this is hard. This is really hard. More than just being away from home, but being an introvert that is constantly with seven girls at all times is hard. Sleeping on a sleeping pad is hard. Opening up and being vulnerable with my team is hard. The list goes on and on. But, one thing that I have found constant is my true joy from the Lord.
Before coming on the race, I had this God shaped hole in my heart for so many years and tried to fill it with anything this world had to offer me. I looked for happiness in all of the wrong places. There is something far deeper that our soul craves and desires.
Movies and society tell us we can find it in a relationship or in a wallet. But if that was truly our deepest desire, the Bible would instruct us to love our soul-mate above all else and to find all of our happiness and joy in them. Or, it would tell us to buy the biggest house and nicest car to finally be content and satisfied. But, it clearly tells us to love our God above all else. You see this world did not create us, so how would it know how to fill the empty void in our lives? The only one who knows what we truly desire and need is our creator.
We place a higher value on what is in our bank accounts rather than what is in our hearts. I may not be a millionaire with this world’s wealth, but I am rich in God’s economy.
I am finally grasping this concept myself and have already found so much unexpected joy. It’s crazy that our God is a good God and will give us what we desire. We just have to look for it in the right places. I’m not saying that I don’t struggle with anything anymore, but I am saying that I know where to turn to when problems do arise.
Update:
Ministry these days is really busy. We are working with human trafficking victims, a down syndrome center, and two prisons. In addition, we are also teaching a class on what christianity is all about. Most days are really busy.
I am so sorry for the lack of blogging last month. Writing may be one of my least favorite activities to do, but I will try my best to keep you all updated 🙂 Thanks for the continued support and prayers.
