Hey friends, family, and everyone I miss so dearly!
It’s been a while- I’ve physically moved across the globe since writing my last blog (oops)! But I am so excited to share with you a few things the Lord has been teaching me the last couple of months.
First, Nicaragua was AMAZING! My parents got to come the last week we were there and do ministry alongside me and it was honestly so incredible seeing them be bold and stepping into what I have been living on the Race. They are my biggest supporters and role models and I could go on and on about how they’ve impacted me.. but I’ll save that for another time.. 🙂
On our day off of ministry when my parents were here we had the opportunity to see a real live volcano and then go swimming in a volcano crater. As if that experience wasn’t cool enough, my dad baptized me in the middle of Nicaragua..inside a volcano crater… with some of the people who matter most to me right there. It was stinkin’ awesome!
But God wasn’t done there.
Fast forward—- (aka a really long bus ride to Costa Rica— then another really long bus ride to Panama)—-
This month has been full of blessings. We are staying in a comfortable house, we have everything we need, and our hosts are literally adorable. But for a few days, I was struggling with my attitude and perspective. I was easily annoyed (internal battle) and was fighting to maintain big picture perspective. I fought this battle in Cambodia and learned such a lesson and I didn’t want to ignore everything I had learned then and miss this opportunity to grow now. BUT, this is where the celebration comes into play. God met me right in my ugliness and reminded me of his perfection. One day last month, he reminded me of his promise that “where I am weak, he is strong”. One morning on the beach, running/ praying out loud to God he reminded me of his promise again. He listened so graciously to all my junk and then he said “stop right now and run into the ocean.” So I did. Fully clothed and fully surrendered. And he washed over me with so much joy, so much refreshment, and so much forgiveness. He told me that in obedience and as a daily reminder of his goodness and power to get in the ocean every day and let him refresh me. So I have. It’s like a daily reminder that he washes me clean– a reminder of my baptism.
I’ve been running to God in my struggles. I need him, like seriously NEED him, to get through the day. Heck, more like even get through the morning. It’s not because I hate ministry or my team or anything because I adore both. It’s just simply because he fills me up. I’ve wanted to have an intimate relationship with Jesus for years but have never put in the time, effort, or heart that he desires. Now that I am giving him more of me I want more and more and more of him. It’s cool how that works, huh? 🙂
