Just when I thought I had everything figured out, life took an unexpected turn.
When I got accepted to squad lead, I was expecting to meet my squad at training camp and launch to our first country 5 weeks later.
Well, apparently God had other plans in mind. But there’s no doubt in my mind that he brought me back to Georgia to teach me, push me, challenge me, and use me. I might not know the reasons right now or ever. What I do know is that I have grown this month. I have grown closer to the Lord. I have experienced his faithfulness in so many ways this month. He has proven to me that he is good no matter my circumstances. Together we have conquered mountain after mountain. Together we have been in the really hard moments when I wanted to give up. Together we were in the really great moments when I was overwhelmed with joy and thankfulness.
My heart is so full. As I reflect on this month, I can see the Lords hand on every situation. He’s provided the right people at the right time, the right conversation at the right time, He’s provided things like a car, a class of welcoming students, a loving supportive family that has taken me in as their own, my huge support team back home, and so many small precious moments where my intimacy with the Lord has grown deeper and deeper.
There have been so many moments this month where I have said, “If the Lord brought me here for this moment alone, then its so worth it.”
“And after you have suffered for a little while, the God of all grace who called you to his eternal glory in Christ WILL himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.” 1 Peter 5:10
I know the Lord is using me for some really great things because the enemy has been trying to use everything to bring me down. From feelings of failure and inadequacy to thoughts of doubt and discouragement about my future.
He never promised us that it would be an easy life to live, but he does promise to restore, confirm, and establish us in these challenging seasons. I believe theres a difference between punishment and discipline. God will never punish us for the things we fall short in, but he does walk us through the hard times in life so that we may be disciplined to rely on him.
So, with all that being said, I am no longer squad leading. God has given me unexplainable peace with this decisions and I trust that he will continue to lead me on this incredible journey called life.
Right now, Im thankful for the hard, refining season he is walking me through. Even though I’m unsure of what my next step is, I stand firm knowing that no matter where Ive been, no matter where I am, and no matter where I’m going He is with me and will remain good.
Jesus replied, “You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.” John 13:7
Whats next you ask? I have no idea! But thats the exciting part! Please join me in prayer as I take some small steps of faith into the unknown future. #blindfaith
“Theres no shadow you won’t light up, mountain you won’t climb up, coming after me. Theres no wall you won’t kick down, no lie you won’t tear down, coming after me.” -reckless love. Hillsong
