Music-less Worship

Listening to it.

Playing it.

Singing it.

Learning about it.

Writing it.

Teaching it.

I'm pretty sure I came out with drumsticks in hand.

(I wish… That would be the coolest baby ever).

 

You get my point-

I'm a musician.

Ergo, I'm usually the one to jump up and help out with worship.

Typically on the Race I've been on the drums.

I used to just be the one to sing,

but I've realized how I feel the Spirit just a much when I'm just playing the drums,

and that I don't need to be singing the words with my mouth, 

because I can sing in my Spirit.

 

Last night, the tables turned completely.

My friend Amanda also plays the drums,

so she volunteered to play for the evening.

And I couldn't sing,

because I've had a sore throat the last few days.

 

So worship was about to start,

and there I am sitting in the audience.

I was antsy.

I didn't know what to do with myself.

I saw an electric guitar on stage that no one was gonna use,

and I seriously considered just going up and messing around on it,

even though I'm a world class amateur. 

But I held back.

 

The music started….

and I wasn't on stage.

(Insert freakout here).

 

I grabbed my journal and started writing like a fiend.

"I guess I'm realizing that being an artist is awesome, 

but it's also really challenging at times.

 One, because  I'm not singing or playing and I have no idea what to do with myself, and two, I think without realizing it I can easily just sing the words 

but not really listen to what I'm saying."

 

Worship=music.

Where did that concept come from?

I mean, I've never been to a night of worship that didn't involve some form of music.

However, I also know that worship is something we do all the time.

But I fell into the trap.

Maybe even more so,

because I wanna hide behind a microphone or an instrument.

I mean seriously, I'm sitting in the audience like

"what do I do with my hands?"

 

I felt the Spirit tell me that he's gonna teach me a new depth to worship

and that it's gonna be uncomfortable.

Because worship isn't just singing or playing an instrument.

It's not a separated or compartmentalized part of life.

And it certainly doesn't exist only where music is being played.

 

Worship is a lifestyle.