I hate to talk about money but unfortunately that is a part of life on earth.
I have been stressing out a lot about money lately. I have been learning to trust in God and He is definitely teaching me to solely rely on Him and not my own doing. I have been working hard to raise enough money to make it to the $6,500 deadline before launch on July 11th. I still have $2,500 to go not to mention the rest ($15,500 for the whole trip). I plan to sell my car and do a couple more fundraisers but I still can't help it but think that I may not be able to go and do want my heart beats for, which is to teach people about the love of Christ, hug an orphan, feed the hungry, give hope to a prostitute, care about the homeless and give my time and love someone who has been hurt and forgotten.
This fundraising journey has made me realize how much money is use for the benefit of ourselves and how freeing it can be to stop spending so much time wanting stuff. I have seen how much I spend on my self, while saying that I want to help other people in third world countries who don't even have money for food. I hear people complain about how much health care in Canada sucks because you have to wait 6 months for a knee replacement while children in Africa are dying from something that would only cost $10 to cure but they can't afford it. How did we get to be so selfish and not care, is it because it's far away somewhere else?
I don't want to be like that anymore. I don't want to come back from the race and go back to my selfish ways. I know I'm going to be temped to forget about what I have seen and be immersed in North American culture again but I pray that God will guard against that. God is already showing me how to fully rely on Him to provide. I have to say I don't like it too much but I know he knows the future and my needs better than I do. I will have to see what will happen during the next few months but I know that if it is Gods will for me, He will provide what I need.
