“Sit. Wait. Be still. Rest.”
These words keep rolling in my spirit over and over. Papa gifted me with a rest season in this time before the Race, one without a schedule or work. I’m exploring what it means to simply be.
And, let me tell you, it’s challenging ..
I used to be that person always seeking “fillers” with any spare time I had; being by myself and having nothing to do made me uncomfortable.
My, how I’ve changed .. I now crave the quiet, secret place where I sit still and listen to all the rustlings outside as I’m tucked away in my room. There’s beauty in fellowship (and this extrovert needs it) but I know that Papa wants me to hang out with Him for a while in solitude.
In the midst of it all, He made me aware of how I allowed doing to define me; accomplishing things seemingly gave me purpose and identity. But that’s not so in the kingdom of God …
We are because He is.
I’ve kept this mindset that by doing I become more of who I am when, in reality, I already am and are becoming in Christ Jesus. My identity is already shaped by Christ’s finished work on the cross yet I’m being perfected through surrender daily. And this is accomplished through accepting and receiving our identity in Jesus alone.
“And you, being dead in your trespasses and the uncircumcision of your flesh, He has made alive together with Him, having forgiven you all trespasses, having wiped out the handwriting of requirements that was against us, which was contrary to us. And He has taken it out of the way, having nailed it to the cross” (Colossians 3:13-14).
Evangelist Smith Wigglesworth (sweet name, right?) penned, “Are you ready? You may ask, ‘What for?’ For God to be all in all, and for you to lose your identity in the perfection of His glorified purity – for you to be lost to everything else except Him” (Wigglesworth on the Anointing, 65-66). What Holy Spirit revealed to me is that it all comes back to identity. It’s foundational to becoming love because once we know whose we are and who we are in Him, everything else builds upon that truth.
And who is our foundation, our cornerstone? Jesus.
I’m learning that to be broken is to be full; to be emptied is to receive; to be lost is to be found in Jesus.
I feel Christ setting me free from myself, from meeting expectations that the world sets as a measurement of “success,” from the pressures of society to do something in order to become who Christ already declares I am.
And oh how glorious it is!
So to answer Wiggleworth’s question, I am ready to lose myself in Christ, to be lost to everything else except Jesus. I’m done with doing and ready to be and become …
