I stare at my contact list. My eyes wander over names and addresses of faithful friends and family members whose hearts are to witness God’s kingdom come. And the question that I whisper out loud is, “What would you have me do next, Papa?”
You see this go round is different. It’s step by step, moment by moment submission to my Father. I wait upon His prompting before making any movement. Yet, the biggest distinction is Holy Spirit’s instruction not to seek out people directly for provision, but to return to Daddy God for everything. And trust me, it’s a spiritual battle over my heart, soul, mind and strength.
I’m walking through the refining fire because Jesus is in the midst of the flames with me.
What I’ve come to realize is how uncomfortable I am with not being in control, with not being my own provision. I recall prayer and journal entries that go a little something like this: “I want to be in such a position where I can only depend upon You for my every need; where only You can get the glory for miraculous work; where the impossible becomes possible because I laid my life in Your hands.” Seems as though I asked for this, right? True story.
God is uprooting every lie, every false idea I’ve created and believed about who He is and highlighting Scripture that proclaims truth about the GREAT I AM. He’s drawing me into the secret place to worship and celebrate Him. He’s filling my mouth with declarations and thanksgiving because my words have authority. He’s building my confidence upon His promises and questioning, “Do I say that in My Word?” It’s all leading to a more intimate relationship with Abba Father.
And there’s no place I’d rather be ..
As I continue this walk of faith, I believe He’s already met my needs. This a new territory for me but the Lord doesn’t call without providing and that’s truth I stand upon.
“And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 4:19)
This uprooting has awakened my heart to Papa’s glorious promises and the indescribable majesty of who He is. This preparation time is very important, a season that’s vital to what lies ahead. I rejoice in who He’s molding me into: a precious daughter overflowing with love for and confidence in her Daddy God.
