Well if theres a “bloggers block” I’ve definitely had it! Or maybe that could also just be the concussion I’ve been dealing with for the last two weeks.
But I am very thankful and grateful to say that, I am on the mend and am starting to definitely feel more myself again. I’ve always been a pretty physically strong and healthy person with very high energy and will power. With that said, I think the hardest things I’ve had to surrender to this and accept is my independence and command of what I do with my time and day, the pace I set for my self (which is usually hard and fast) and the many goals I set out to achieve each day. Having to put all of those to a screeching halt is hard, real hard in-fact!
I believe one of the most important lessons God wanted me to grasp through all of this was that my identity was not in goals I accomplished, or things I achieved and how empowering that made me feel, but in who I was in Him when all those things were gone. I have had to learn what it means to be quiet and spiritually at rest. I have gained in this past week and a half a new confidence and knowledge of God and who I am in Him. I am truly carious to see how this experience and trial is preparing me and going to be used and applied while on the Race and to just take it forward from right now and carry it into my life.
Yesterday I had my second follow-up appointment at my doctors and was told that I can start slowly rolling back into my routines. This is very exciting for me. I truly have a new appreciation for being able to drive myself places and not have to be carted around everywhere. I am SO thankful to those who have helped me though through this and who are continuing to be a very great help and rocks in my life. You guys know who you are or at least I certainly hope you do! I am so grateful to you guys and only God knows how much it means to me.
There is SO much I could write about that has gone on in the past two weeks, I have no doubt that God is in this. He is reveling to me how strong His hand is in this jouney. I am so excited to see the hearts that He’s moving in and touching to come up behind me and be apart of this journey with me. So many people are blessing my soul and heart. And I just LOVE the new relationships and people I’m getting to talk to and know because of this.
Hopefully I will be able to go back to posting at the VERY least once a week again, until the Race, then you should hopefully hear from me two to three times a week! 
I do ask that you would pray that I would continue to heal quickly and that I wouldn’t do anything stupid in my eagerness to get back to living and doing everything so passionately.
Up until now this is the only way I’ve known how to do things. My concussion is causing me to learn how to or at least start to master or maybe just learn about the other side, the quit side of life and what good there is in that too.
I am also thankful for the meditation I have got to have and the growth thats taking place there, because I was forced to be still. Hopefully I will seek that out more now with out doing it “because I have no other choice”.
Again I am thrilled and hope to just have some kind of positive impact to those who are on this Race with me and to the ones who will be following it here.
