I should tell you now, that most of my blog posts will probably have some sort of song tied into them. I think my life can pretty much be summed up in 6 words. Love Jesus. Love People. Love Music. Music has always been one of the greatest ways that the Lord has spoke to me. Time and time again, He will give me just the right song at just the right time. Seriously I can't even count how often that happens.
On that note, I'm going to be really raw here.
I long to be married.
Most people who know me have known that for years, I long to be romanced, I long to be the wife to a great man. But, the Lord hasn't given that to me yet, so I wait. And let me tell you, it's HARD! Some days I just wanna break down. I wanna settle. I wanna just find someone good enough, and not wait anymore for God's timing and God's best. Somedays I believe satan's lies that I'm not worthy enough for that incredible Godly man that I wait for. But that's just it. Those things are not from my Lord, from my one true love. They are from the world, they are from the flesh, and they are from the enemy. So even when it's hard…I wait.
Over the last year or so, I've begun to understand how the Lord pursues me more and more. In ways I seriously thought wasn't possible. But He has. He knows my love of His stars and that's usually where I hear Him the best. Just me and Him under the stars. Being still in His presence, just enjoying His beauty and being in awe that the huge God who made all of that, longs for, loves, and pursues Me. OH and of course, there is always a soundtrack either playing on my phone, or just in my head. Jesus Culture – Dance with Me. Phil Wickham – Beautiful. Shawn McDonald – Beautiful. The Afters – Light up the Sky. David Crowder Band – Stars. Hillsong – With Everything and All I need is You. Cory Asbury – Faithful to the end. Just to name a few. He knows I am a sucker for mushy gushy music and long to be romanced, so He romances me. He knows my heart. He knows just the moments I need to feel Him there the most and shows himself to me in the stars, in the music, and also through the words of other people.
Over the last 3 days or so, I keep hearing over and over…'Come away with me'…'Come away'…Like from the Jesus Culture song, Come Away….Just you and I. Just give me a few days where there is nothing else but us. And I can tell you that every time I hear that, my entire being longs and seriously my heart aches for just that. So this weekend, I am going away with Him. Just Him. I am so excited about it, it's not even funny. It feels like the butterflies of a first date or something…every fiber of my being is soo anxious to just be with Him. Not just for a few minutes in the morning and a few minutes during the day and then a few at night. No, DAYS! Whole days. Just being alone with my love, my Lord.
Maybe He's asking you also to 'Come away'…I know you won't regret it.
