This month in Romania has
been quite the adventure. Due to a few factors, we had a rather rough
start; however, we have seen God redeem and restore virtually every
situation and relationship here.
This has also been a month
of redemption and restoration for me personally. I had trouble
connecting with my teammates last month, but in praying for God to
correct my perspectives, He has graciously given me a new perspective
on situations in Viile Tecii as well as my relationships with my
teammates. We did some prophetic prayer for each other and for Viile
Tecii this morning, and the revelations that came from it were so
encouraging. The purpose of such prayer is basically to build up and
edify the Body of Christ. I’ve been asking God to reveal to me more
about who I am in Him this month, and this prayer time served to
confirm a few things that I believe the Lord has been revealing to
me. First off, I think He has shown me that I am compassionate,
gentle, and sensitive at my core. Today, I was told that I have a
heart of deep compassion, which is a gift from the Lord. I also love
with a strong love, and that my hugs to children and women will
communicate God’s love to them more than words can, even that I will
be hugging those who have never been hugged before. This about made
me cry, because it was a kind of answer to prayer from struggling
with the fact that I can’t verbally communicate with most of the
people we are encountering on the field and wonder how am I supposed
to share God’s love with them if I can’t talk to them. I believe this
is my answer. I have also been told multiple times now that I have a
powerful voice to be unleashed…and while I am still discovering
what this is and means, it resonates with my spirit. As of right now,
I believe that means I have been given a powerful voice as an
encourager and prayer warrior, which God has been challenging and
growing me in this month. Maybe it also means that I am to call forth
love, the Lord even, in various situations…I’m not sure but I’m
definitely praying about it and excited to see where the Lord takes
me and what He does in and through me with it! Finally, we learned a
couple of days ago about “spiritual instincts,� or the various
ways people connect with the Lord. My teammates and I talked about
which one we each most were, and mine is definitely contemplative.
That basically means that my time with the Lord is characterized
largely by conversing with Him, and a biblical example is Mary, who I
identified myself as a biblical character that I am most like while
at training camp. Combining that with being a prayer warrior and what
I have been learning about the Holy Spirit living inside of
believers, and I realized that I am now praying from the depths of my
being, a place that only Christ can go, which brings and releases
life in myself and others and hits the depth of intimacy with the
Lord that I have been craving, that which goes deeper than even an
earthly marriage can hit. I am learning my identity as a beloved
child, betrothed bride, and place in the Body of Christ and am
incredibly excited about learning and growing more in this identity
to bring life, healing, hope, and love to the world!
For as we have many
members in one body, but all the members do not have the same
function, so we, being many, are one body in Christ, and individually
members of one another. Having then gifts differing according to the
grace that is given to us, let us use them: if prophecy, let us
prophecy in proportion to our faith; or ministry, let us use it in
our ministering; he who teaches, in teaching; he who exhorts, in
exhortation; he who gives, with liberality; he who leads, with
diligence; he who shows mercy, with cheerfulness.
— Romans 12:4-8
